horrible session

omg, I just wrote this huge thing and lost it.

I guess I'll just tell the short version. I had a HORRIBLE SESSION yesterday. Not the kind of session where I would write about it and people would say "but look how supportive T is" or "look how much you're growing". Just awful.

I am so, so, so, so angry at T, and I am sure he is angry at me, too.

I just feel sick today. WHY does therapy have to be so hard? Sometimes I think I almost can't stand it anymore.

You are doing hard work and that is when the you-know-what hits the fan. This is what therapy is all about, the hard stuff and the anger and letting it all out. It's very healing but you likely won't feel that right away! Our T's can take pretty much anything we dish out to them, so try not to worry too much about that. Just keep talking. That is the main thing.

i am so sorry you had a horrible session

I'm sorry you ended up being angry with T - but I am sure he is NOT angry with you - from what you have told me - he will not be angry.

I am sorry you lost your post - I hate it when that happens Grrrrrr computer gremlins!!!!

Somtimes therapy sucks! but a very wise person (you) once told me that it is at these very times that a breakthrough can be made when the rupture is talked about and ultimately mended.

I will sit with you as long as you need me to - Ive brought hot chocolate (theres a surprise!) lots of cuddlies, a pillow to punch if you feel the need! a warm furry blanket and all of your friends - geez I'll need a really really big room!

(((((((((( dear t house ))))))))

your T is not angry with you, and you may not be able to see what was really done yesterday, not yet. Give yourself some time to calm down and get settled. My T said that this work is sort of circular, you go and come back and go forward again and come around again. Please be patient. You are trying your best and that's all you can do - but it is hard - here's a sweet hug for you

I'm sorry you had a horrible session. I can relate. Mine have been really bad the last 2 weeks also. I also know the frustration and fed up feelings of wanting to quit. Therapy is HARD WORK. It HURTS. (It's only those people who have never been in therapy who think it's all indulgence, pats on the back and "poor baby's."

I wish I had some good advice. I don't. Do you want to talk about what happened? I'll listen.

I agree with everything that is posted here....It is hard work, and there's a reason for the anger, etc.

Be good to yourself. And we are here to listen.

TY to all of you

I am weepy, weepy, weepy today. It's almost too much.

I might try to come back later to write about what happened but my teen part (who is the person who screwed everything up so horribly yesterday) is basically telling me no one REALLY gives a **** anyhow.

I know that's just her. But I'm having a hard time separating her from me right now.
me
teen
us

ugh

Treehouse, I'm sorry you had such a rough session.

You've written over and over about how caring your T is. I just can't believe that would all be erased in one day, no matter how frustrated you are or he is. Hang in there.

Treehouse...she sound like a typical teen. I sense mind at play in my head quite often during therapy.
Nice thing about T's are...the therapuetic relationship is designed to handle these outbursts and mental muck that messes of other types of relationships.

hmm teen wants to be heard - T would understand that - T would undersatand all the different parts of Treehouse and accepts them all - T would not be angry with Treehouse - he has shown that time and again - I hope you cna talk with T and sort this out and that the sun comes out for you soon

2am so going to bed - hope your day gets better

(((((((tree))))))))

I can't imagine your T being mad at you...At least the kindof mad that it seems you are fearful of...I hope that you are able to connect with him have some peace of mind. He knows how difficult this process is for you.

I hope that you get some time to be kind to you. You deserve it. You work very very hard.

(((((((((((((((( treehouse )))))))))))))))))

T e-mailed and asked if he could call me. So we talked tonight.

I guess there was just a lot of confusion in session yesterday. T says he wishes he could go back and do it over again.

It felt good to reconnect. Things are just way too hard right now. I can't WAIT to be on the other side of all of this someday.

(((((Treehouse)))))

Im glad you got to connect with T - I hope you feel better soon

Treehouse We care!

WOW, I am SO glad that your T reached out to you!!! I doubt my T would ever do that! It's such a huge accomplishment to work THROUGH the issues....to work towards getting to the other side. I am tiptoeing around the issues. I envy you for being strong enough to DO IT.

He's only done it twice in a year and a half...and only when things were off-the-deep-end bad...not a "normal" behavior for him at all! And this situation, in particular, was caused in a large part by him, so I know he wanted to apologize and straighten it out.

It was nice of him to do it though, for sure.

I hope you did get things sorted treehouse and that you are feeling better