[JayL]

So my ex called the other day, i don't know if i mentioned her before but i guess you could say we've been seeing each other off and on for 3years. It has never worked out because she is a pathalogical lyer and also cheated on me.
Although whenever she calls or comes over i always bring her in, and we talk and then somehow start going out to lunch or a movie and eventually get back together. Anyway i have never had a problem spending time with her because i knew it wasn't going to be a forever type relationship and i just liked having her around. Anyway she called last night and she wanted to ask if i thought she was a horrible person and was crying because i guess she was fighting with a friend or something. Well i told her to come by and we'd drive around and see each other because it had been a couple of months. It turned out great and she was holding onto my arm and being affectionate like she wanted to see if she could make it work again for about the 4th time. We made plans to go out on a date tonight at 7, and i waited and was looking forward to going out and seeing a movie, because man... i haven't seen a movie in way too long. Well time goes by and she calls to say she's is going to be longer than usuall because her "mom is getting her hair done with her too". I say fine whatever and when your ready that's fine we'll go out and catch a bite to eat or something.
........tick tock...tick tock... time ticks by and she doesn't call untill after 10 and then when she does she says she wants to change and then meet at the local resterant we always go to. I'm irritated that she made plans and once again didn't follow through, but I still go meet her because she asked, and sounded all worried that i was mad at her. I was, but i didn't want to say it because i didn't want to break her heart if she was trying to be sweet and make things work so we could get back together. ..Anyway we meet and the first thing i notice is she smells like pot! Wow this is the first time i've EVER smelled it on her breath, so i was quite shocked and wondering when this all started. Anyway i don't mention it till later and we wait a few minutes to be seated. ....The whole time i'm wondering why she is smoking pot and if she is lying to me about what she was doing today. We talk about this and that, almost awkward, but probably mostly for me. She is putting her leg over mine and still hugging my arm and pretending to be trying to win me over. I'm going with it, not offering my arm to her but not pulling away, but i finally confront her about it. I ask why she called me all of a sudden, and say i have to say something....'you smell like marijuana.'
.. At this point it's completly awkward and she pulls away from me all shocked. Her front is broken and she starts to act different...like she usually does when she's not trying to pull something on me. I hate this side of her and she knows this, which is why she always acts different. I also hate this side of me, so i try to forget about it but i do get a confession at least. She said she hadn't smoked today but that she hadn't washed her jacket in awhile...not too smooth to me. I realized then that she hadn't been with her mom at all but probably was getting her hair done with one of her friends and that it was taking so long because they were both, or all, out having fun and doing something together. And she decided that she would forget about me untill she was hungry and then go get a bite like we had planned. Only she would expect me to pay for it like usual. She never reaches for her wallet or offers to pay for herself, and was actually using me in the past to try and see how much %#@&#! she could make me pay for her. This one of the reasons we had broke up before but she tried to make an effort to change and denied my claims that she was using me. Anyway i finally change the subject from me interagating her as to why she wants to see me and why she smells like pot and all sorts of stuff we always talk about right before we break up. And we have a decent conversation untill he finish our food and walk back to our cars. When we get there i say "ok see ya later then..." and she seems surprised like she wanted to hang out still but says goodbye.
>>> Bottom line is I don't want to deal with anymore of her lying and cheating and putting me below her so i don't plan on calling her and if she calls i'm just going to make up an escuse about why i'm busy and can't go with her. I mean i've called the relationship off so many times but still tried to remain friends there is really no point in fighting by saying it's over. I'll just let it end on it's own by making up escuses on why i'm too busy.
Thanks for listening, i just felt like writting, night - J>L