[bridgie]

I have been talking with someone for a cpl months now. We had our first date. It was fun relaxed and overall went well. I like this guy and I even put off cutting myself so if things go forward he won't see fresh cuts. I've been doing fairly well with the whole thing. I know as it gets more serious the more I'm going to freak. New things are hard for me let alone letting someone into my inner sanctum. I haven't let anyone in for along time and am slightly afraid. I dnt want him to see my wild mood swings but they will come out eventually and I will have to explain I'm bp. I hate that part to. Why do I even have to say anything. I dnt even know why I'm fretting so. It was just one date but we have a 2nd soon. And we talk every day and have talked every day for a few months. Its ok I'll be ok. I hope thanks for letting me go on and on I just needed to let it out.

[lorna]

Bridgie,
From what you explain here, this guy seems to be good and positive. You seem to like each other, have a second date coming. Try to look at the situation as a positive one, it sounds great. You have someone who is interested in getting to know you. Talk with a friend if you are stressing. Its in my opinion not a good idea to talk about mental health issues unless both of you have it in common, or you feel he would understand. I wish you all the best, and happiness

[bridgie]

I found out he hasn't told a soul about me. Not even that I'm a friend. I don't want to be a secret. Something to hide. That doesn't bode well with me. It make me leary of the whole situation. Makes me wonder what's really going on in his head.

[Shangrala]

Hi Bridgie~
(I responded to your other post, as well).

It seems to me that the best way to approach this is with optimism and LOTS of patience.
Credit yourself the fact that someone is interested enough TO seek further contact with you. Try not to seek cynical motives because of his need for secrecy (at this time)...it's FAR too early yet to even think those thoughts.
As far as your bp.....keep that to yourself, until he has proven himself worthy of your trust, which, might I add, WILL take much time and patience (and faith).
If you construct your thoughts seeking the negative, then that is EXACTLY what you WILL receive.

Give yourself a break. Allow yourself to be loved. However, tread slowly and focus on the good to be had.

Wish you all the best.
Take care~

Shangrala

[bridgie]

Thank you shangrala. I'm trying to think positive. He told me he was gonna tell his dad he was comeing to see a friend. At least if he does I won't be a secret anymore. I can handle being a friend cuz that's what we are. I guess I'm just really nervous.