Can't shake the thoughts this week

Thank you, thank you, thank you

I needed to hear everything that you wrote (and wrote beautifully I might add ). I am over thinking everything.
I can't control the future and you are right I am spending time dwelling on the negatives rather than just feeling the love...
I have to give this my all or it's not going to work and progress.
Perhaps I should see my T and just talk out all of the insecurities before Louis comes back...

I spoke/video call on Skype last night... it felt like he was right there with me other than the fact it was just him on a computer screen lol. I woke up smiling, am still smiling when I think of the silly bugger kissing the screen last night..

Sanity, my gentlemen friend who I walk with on Sunday mornings is 58... he has just found a really nice woman too (so both of us are cheekily smiling all of the time)... it seems to me that the relationships later in life are wonderful, full of joy and romance so in 5 years I bet you will find someone special

That a girl. Enjoy every minute without fear. A talk with your T sounds like a good idea. Then leave the worry talk in the therapy room.

As for me.... time will tell. Meanwhile it feels right for me to not add that to the mix. Maybe when my son moves out on his own I will feel different and maybe if my symptoms stablize.... maybe then I will have room to consider the option; but not now.

I am enjoying every minute of my emotions last night and today.
He rings me for a video chat every night - which is great but am scared that I will run out of things to say and he will get bored... don't know how to say that every day isn't necessary, maybe it will slow down once the 'honeymoon' phase wears off