[CherryDropz88]

I met a guy on the internet over 2 years ago. We met in person after a few months of talking online. He was great, everything I imagined. I instantly became attracted to him, not just the words he typed on the screen. We spent a week together, talking, hanging out and having lots of sex. This is probably the time where I mention he was 46 and I was 20 when this all happened. After that week he left and didn't talk to me again, he ignored my calls, texts, e-mails etc. I was very depressed about all this. Finally, I moved on, and had meaningless sex with other men. Even thought I loved one who ended up being married. Anyway, this 46 year old man who I was/am deeply in love with, contacted me again after 2 years of no contact. We had talked for the past month like several times a day. Well, this past week I heard nothing from him. Oh no not again, I thought. He's just playing with my heart... not cool. Well, I googled his name, because I thought something was up, he got arrested for having sexual contact with a minor.

This doesn't suprise me. The things we were both into didn't surprise me that he would get arrested sooner or later. I guess I'm just angry because he had it all with me, I am into the same sexual things (some might call them perversions) like age play, BDSM, amongst other things etc plus I'm LEGAL. He doesn't have to worry about anything because I'm over 18! I'm safe. He threw away our complete fantasy for this girl. We were gonna have a baby. We could have had it all but no he ruined it.

I forgove him, and I still love him and I always will. He means a lot to me. And if someday he would contact me again, I will return to him. He belongs with me and no one else. He may have some issues but who doesn't? He will always be my baby.

Mariah Carey's "Always Be My Baby" is dedicated to him

[Perna]

How is it you are forgiving someone who hasn't asked for, doesn't necessarily want your forgiveness? You can't have a relationship with yourself! He is not serious about you or he wouldn't keep disappearing. He does not take you seriously but you should take yourself seriously and find someone who enjoys you as much as you do them.

[Yoshi]

I agree with Perna 100% , Take her advice please. Best of luck

[Rhiannonsmoon]

This is straight up a one sided relationship. You seem to be in love with a fantasy and are happy to let it go that he groomed a minor for sex probably over the net the way he groomed and used you for his perversions. Obviously it wasn't satisfying enough for him and he wanted the real thing. He is a paedophile and I don't understand how you seem to be blaming "this girl".

He didn't have the whole package with you because he used you and then ignored you for 2 years and you let him walk right back in showing him that you could be used when ever he wanted to use you.

I'd ask you Cherry to look at this person without the rose coloured glasses on and see the paedophile that he is. You need to listen to Perna and open your eyes. Don't allow yourself to be simply used by this man who isold enough to be your father and technically the grandfather of the minor he sexually abused

[Rhiannonsmoon]

I meant to say too that this is not Crime and Passion it is Lust and Crime and no matter how you dress it up that is what it is

[NuckingFutz]

I hope that as time passes, that you will grow to know that you are worthy of better things and better people. There are so many good people out there who will treat you as you deserve to be treated instead of abusing and abandoning you. I am glad you did not end up pregnant by this man. You would have ended up raising it by yourself as convicted sex offenders cannot be around their own children.

[NuckingFutz]

Cherry, are you still with us?

He had sex with a minor, he needs to be shot not forgiven.

[CherryDropz88]

I understand what you guys are saying. It does seem one-sided. He hasn't tried to contact me since the incident. Maybe he can't. There will always be a place in my heart for him. No man has ever got me so excited before. He meant a lot to me and he always will. But I have to move on. I do derserve someone better as far as someone who will love me as much as I love them. Thanls all for your replies.

[professor412]

Originally Posted by NuckingFutz

I hope that as time passes, that you will grow to know that you are worthy of better things and better people. There are so many good people out there who will treat you as you deserve to be treated instead of abusing and abandoning you. I am glad you did not end up pregnant by this man. You would have ended up raising it by yourself as convicted sex offenders cannot be around their own children.

I agree with you 100%. We have almost 7 billion people on this planet. I believe you can find someone who is not a sex offender. Even entertaining the thought of having children with him I find very troubling.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Originally Posted by CherryDropz88

I understand what you guys are saying. It does seem one-sided. He hasn't tried to contact me since the incident. Maybe he can't. There will always be a place in my heart for him. No man has ever got me so excited before. He meant a lot to me and he always will. But I have to move on. I do derserve someone better as far as someone who will love me as much as I love them. Thanls all for your replies.

Dear Cherrydropz,

It's not your heart he got excited...you need to refocus and as you say move on...you will find someone worthy of loving and who is as they say "the whole package"

Proud of you for making the decision to move on,

Rhiannon

[AkAngel]

Originally Posted by Perna

How is it you are forgiving someone who hasn't asked for, doesn't necessarily want your forgiveness?

Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself; you need no ones permission.

I applaud the OP for moving on and think that you are making a good choice.

[El-ahrairah]

Eww I'm sorry but he's a pedophile, A PEDOPHILE, Pedophiles don't have a heart or a soul and they are evil manipulative people who prey on naive YOUNG girls like the one he had sex with and you.

[El-ahrairah]

Originally Posted by Tishie

He had sex with a minor, he needs to be shot not forgiven.