[bridgie]

i blocked my ex and his new woman. i hadnt been with him for years when out of the blue he messages me and wants to get back together get married and move to illinois. he told me that he was still married and we could work out our issues while he waited to end it with his current wife. i told his wife and i just recently found out he went back to another old girlfriend and told her he wanted to marry her and the same as he told me. so i told her that. now i blocked them i cant message and they cant message me. i dont want him to be with her i dont want to be with him either. i told him no and told him exactly how i felt all these years that he has been in and out of my and our sons life. i never let it out before but this time i did, and now i am all these horrible names and so is our son. so i really dont want him back. yet in the back of my mind i miss him i wish things could have been different. but they are not and i feel for the current woman and hope he doesnt do the things hes been doing to every woman he has been with since ive known him. anyway it feels strange to be done again something i thought was done last time and in a way i feel it is for good this time i have a knawing feeling in the back of my head that it may never be over.

[jenkins09]

If he is willing to get with you while he is still married, you dont need him. Explore your feelings, mourn what could have been and move on.

[bridgie]

I had already been thru the ending things with him before. I've ended things multiple times. Last we were together he did some things not acceptable. So it was over and then he tries again. I hate it. I wanted it to work when things were not as complicated before he did those things but after those I can't do it anymore I know that. If it was over before why am I feeling this way now. I thought I had mourned the ending. How did this flicker get to me so badly.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

bridgie,

You've done the right thing to block him and keep walking. He is a player and he will always have someone on the back burner...I think you should be proud you weren't taken advantage of again...

Rhiannon

[bridgie]

Thanx I'm trying to do right by myself and my son. Today I feel a little better. Its still strange to have to end things that were already over. Its like someone coming back from the dead and having to go to another funeral and bury them all over again.

[hoping4best]

it can be over if u want it to be over that day when u'll decide that u dont need this man in ur life any more,that will be the day u will stop feeling for him. then whatever he'll do will not bother u. dont go back to him. move on.

[bridgie]

Jaikhan you are right. I need to be strong about it. I haven't needed him for along time. Its like a recurring nightmare that untill I figure out the deeper meaning I'll keep having it. I've told him no for the past few times but still comes back later like a bad penny. I've stopped believing anything he says I just need to finish within myself. Any suggestions on how to get the nightmare out of my head would be appreciated. I've already been starting a kung fu class to focus on and bring my self esteem up. Also keep my mind there instead of on my emotions.