[bridgie]

actually I'm alone every day(except my son and the class i have two days a week and work but they dont count right now) even in class i feel isolated. work i only talk to a couple people but I dont see them outside of work. my son isnt much adult conversation. I kow there are people out there, sometimes. They dont live near me or are more aquaintances than anything. I guess I'd like to make some sort of conection that I can handle being around for extended periods of time. I have found so far I cannot, and they dont really want to be around me for very long either. Not sure what it is. Perhaps its the reality I have a hard time with noise(its a trigger and I get migrains) i dont know just feeling low and like i will never have a lifelong relationship with anyone. I see everyone else I know have that. I know deep down there are others that dont and I get told and I know its ok to be alone. or my aunt never had anybody so you dont need that. I hate that line. Just because they couldnt find someone means I shouldnt find someone. I would like to be able to. realizing it may never happen. I know how others on here feel when they say they want to find love and feel lonely. I feel that too.

[Elana05]

Hi Bridgie,

Just wanted to say hello, and that I know how you feel. Especially the part about feeling isolated. Sometimes I can be in a room full of people and feel very alone. I really think this is the depression, though.
Do you have a therapist that you see right now? I have found this very helpful.
Sending good thoughts and warm wishes your way.

E

[Rhiannonsmoon]

((((((((((((((((bridgie))))))))))))))))

I can feel in your words how lonely you are and how you are lost in that lonliness bridgie
One day someone wonderful will come along and you will find that happiness.

I didn't find it until I was 44-45. So I am proof positive that it can happen no matter the age. There is someone for everyone, it isn't always life long, because we mostly have been in marriages which didn't survive the years, I know I was in one.

I do know that this one will be to the end. I've never loved a man as much as I love him and I don't want anyone else ever.

Just open your heart and be patient, love happens when we least expect it

[FeelingHopeful]

Im So sorry you feel alone, I want to give you a big online hug !

How I long to be up rather than down, the eternal sorrow that I only escape for short periods. This must be how Persephone felt.

"Sleep. Those little slices of Death. How I loathe them." Edgar Allan Poe

Loving yourself must come first from there comes love for everything else.

I really like your quotes, oh so true.I understand your sorrow and loneliness.
There are many of us here that have to deal with it daily........peace

[bridgie]

thanks all. i know so many people go through this feeling. its very uncomfortable. i wish i could rid myself and everyone else so we wouldnt have to go through it at all.

[serenity4559]

Thank you so much for posting this and letting me know
I am not the only one who feels this way. It helps.

[notz]

I'm heartened knowing I'm not alone after all.

It's hard times, and sometimes I feel very, very much alone in this battle, although I do have spouse. We look at things differently...it's a right brain, left brain difference in make-up.

My feelings, the deep profound ones are simmering, bubbling, just beneath the surface. I'm giving much thought to what they are trying to tell me. In the meantime, I have much to do. I would prefer to sit with my feelings and explore them, but life is in my way at the moment.

Still, I feel lonely.

[lynn P.]

((bridgie)), ((Notz)) and anyone else who's lonely. I have to hop on this lonely train as well. I feel totally alone except for my kids but I can't share my deep feelings/worries with them. I can't even share them with my oldest brother who I'm very close to - he has a heart condition and loves me dearly and I worry I would make him sick with worry about me. The only people who know what I live with are my friends here at PC - it's my only outlet...would probably lose my mind if I didn't have this. Sorry I didn't mean to hog the thread.

[bridgie]

i understand lynnP about having a child but you cant have the deep conversations with them. i also have a brother but he has so many of his own problems that i dont want to put more on him. so when everyone i know is off doing things and going through life. i go through some of the motions but it doesnt help the lonliness. doesnt fill the space that is waiting to be filled

It truly is an enigma that while the population of the world is increasing so is the number of isolated and lonely people. Sometimes I find the only people who talk to me are those I pay and those who serve me food.

http://www.psychologytoday.com/print/4605

[notz]

TheByzantine,

All the better you are here, among so many who happily talk with you. Your words are wise, your manner is gentle and me thinks you have a heart of gold. I like hearing you share about you, more please.

[bridgie]

what do you all think would happen if we put all of us lonely people in one room? would we all shy away and shrink into our on lonliness, or our anxiety cause attacks. can their be a wall flower party