[thetheft]

But i guess if you saw my last post about that guy that doesnt want to talk to me anymore..
Well, he hasnt..
but lastnight i had a dream that he kissed me.. (I know, oooohhoohoho big deal, what are you, 13?) But its terrible, cuz thats all i could think about all day today..
He messes with my head and he doesnt have to comunicate with me to do it, alskdfjlsfj.
Im so terrible....

[salukigirl]

I know exactly how you're feeling, unfortunately. Long story short I had to realize who my real friend was in the situation. This guy would swoop back into my life and, when I was single, we did hook up. We lived in different states and said we would still talk and eventually he told me he didn't want me waiting on him and wanted me to date other people. I said the same. Well.....I did and he didn't. So now every time I go home it's like he reappears out of nowhere talking about how we're meant for each other. The thrill of it can take over. Then I think "when I go back to school after break...he won't keep in touch" and he didn't. Whereas my current bf has been here through my dx of epilepsy, my grandmother's death and a ton of other stuff. This other guy, with whom I felt a deep connection, was only around when he wanted me.

Don't feel bad. It happens. Where does your heart lie? That's what matters. I had a dream the other night that I cheated on my bf. I have also had dreams that he cheated on me. I have also had dreams where we had kids together and a house together. It's just in your subconscious. I understand it's hard not to think about it but dwelling won't do anything but hurt your relationship. If you are true to your bf and want to be with him, just shrug it off as a natural human feeling. Remember, we are all humans and we all make mistakes. You are NOT a terrible girlfriend.

Personally, I feel that, if you want things to work with your current bf, and seeing this other guy messes with your head, it's best to just stay away. Physical chemistry is just that. Physical. It can't replace the genuine love you feel when someone is as close to you as it sounds like your bf is. Hopefully you can work through this and don't blame yourself!

[Sunna]

I am sorry you are feeling like you are terrible, but I really don't understand the logic.

That he doesn't want to talk to you anymore? Ok. So HE doesn't. Sounds like a terrible boyfriend. Right?

And dreaming of him kissing you, well you are connected to him. You think about him, you feel, you miss him... Again, terrible?

But I understand that that's how you feel, whether it makes sense of not. And I am very sorry you feel that way. I wish you could look at it though and realize, that you do not deserve it. This is happening, but not because you are terrible. And it's a double whammy. Not only it's bad in itself but it makes you feel terrible about yourself.

You need some loving and some hugging right now, sweet girl, and I am afraid that the only person you relied on just left you high and dry. Can you love yourself, hug yourself, let yourself cry even and be gentle with yourself? Because THAT is what you deserve, and I am soo sorry you are not getting it.
HUGS

[thetheft]

Thanks guys..[:
Its wierd, me and the guy I had a dream about were like, best friends and i thought i was in love with him until i met my current boyfriend.
But when the guy told me he didnt want to talk to me anymore--i dont know why--but i really, like litterally, got scared that he would be serious.
If i ever told my boyfriend any of this he would dump me immediatly, which is why i turn to people like you on this life-saving site. [:
(and so far, since last weekend, the guy has ignored all my texts.)--which i expected and feared would happen.
And i thought i had gotten over him, but slkfjsldkfj, i thought i did..