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Old Jun 04, 2011, 12:32 PM
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I'm sorry about posting this, I just don't know who else to turn to at the moment, I can't cope no more, so much has been going on/ going wrong! School awful I'm getting in to trouble everyday. I think I'm going to be kicked out soon!
The year 11's have left and I am friendless, because many of my friends were in that year! I've started smoking a hell of a lot, and it's not just fag no more. My boy friends gone in to drug dealing we have been together for ages and he wants me to start as well....I really don't want to....But if I saw no, he will get angry with me, and to be honest? I don't really want that, or can't be bothered with it...Something just happened, I feel so bad, I just want to cut and cut...I want to feel better, but I can't unless it's some place hidden or my boy friend will leave me, and I will be alone again

Please help? I have so much on my plate at the moment not just this and I can't deal with this no more

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Old Jun 04, 2011, 02:41 PM
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Do you think a man is worth going to prison for? I understand in a way you are getting something from him, but again is it worth it? I got my clothes and packed stuff in my bathroom, loaded up my grandbaby and left with no place to live and little to no money. I found a place, but don`t have any friends, lack things I can live without,. but hard to, and I am surviving. As the days go by it gets easier, I promise! Living by yourself like you are is actually an ability you don`t realize you have. Some people may not have made it as long as you have. Hold your head up high, ask yourself how long did you live without this person or that person before you eve r met them. Can you breath without them? Can you take care of yourself without them? Yes, you can. It doesn`t matter how much you want them or how much you think they don`t want you, you only need yourself. I`ve had miserable times like you are having. Can`t listen to music, read a book, fix up and go anywhere. I sat at home and grieved over my losses. I`m not as down as I have been in the past simply because I can and I will take care of myself. I lost most of my friends through rumors and gossip I wish it had been them moving on from school. I`m here to listen if you want a friend to talk to, don`t sit alone and dwell on it.
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Old Jun 04, 2011, 02:52 PM
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My boy friend is worth anything, it is sorta worth it, I do love him a lot, it's hard to explain. He said if I ever leave him he would hurt him self, I have seen him hurt himself right in front of me, seen him go through so much, I feel useless, unable to leave him, he tells me what to where and stuff, which I don't like, but I still listen to him, I just can't leave him, it is to difficult, and I don't want to see him hurting more Thanks for the reply, doubt people would reply to be honest x
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Old Jun 04, 2011, 03:08 PM
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Ask him what he would do to himself if you got arrested and went to prison. He is telling you to lay down your life for him, do as he says or he doesn`t want you anymore so leave. But...if you leave he`s going to kill himself. You have lost all your friends and others, your self esteem and confidence and are sitting there miserable for someone treating you like a robot. I know, you are going to defend him, simply because you love him. For him to do you like this, he doesn`t love you. He knows you aren`t going to leave, he throws the "kill myself" in there to keep you there for his happiness, not yours. Turn it back on him. Tell him if he doesn`t quit dealing drugs that you are leaving. If he decides to kill himself it will be his choice because if he stays you will end up killing yourself. See how you feel now? Be bold and mean it. He doesn`t see you as bold and never will until you prove you are.
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Old Jun 05, 2011, 06:30 AM
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He said he wouldn't mind going in prison, as long as he goes with me, really don't want that to happen I haven't lost all my friends and I doubt I ever will their more than 20 of us in one group, he doesn't treat me like a robot, he just loves me ALOT and cares about me, he stands up for me through a lot, he said he can't help drug dealing or taking drugs, he's struggling a lot, I don't know, I shant have posted, sorry!
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Old Jun 05, 2011, 09:24 AM
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He said he wouldn't mind going in prison, as long as he goes with me, really don't want that to happen I haven't lost all my friends and I doubt I ever will their more than 20 of us in one group, he doesn't treat me like a robot, he just loves me ALOT and cares about me, he stands up for me through a lot, he said he can't help drug dealing or taking drugs, he's struggling a lot, I don't know, I shant have posted, sorry!
Don't apologize - we are trying to help you.

It's not like you guys would go to prison TOGETHER.

You would go in at the same time, but he will be in a men's prison and you would be in a women's prison.

Both of you are young, and will be subject to a lot of abuse from older people that are there longer. Have you ever watched any of the shows on TV about what it's actually like to be in one of those places? It's not a good place to be.

It sounds like he has an illness- drug addiction is an illness, and if you really care about him, maybe you can try to get him some help. Does he have a family you can talk to? I know you feel like he is taking care of you and being there for you, but imagine how much better he'd be if he wasn't on drugs?
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Old Jun 07, 2011, 04:54 PM
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His dads a drug dealer who has a drug problem, not him!
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Old Jun 07, 2011, 05:09 PM
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He said if I ever leave him he would hurt him self, I have seen him hurt himself right in front of me, seen him go through so much, I feel useless, unable to leave him, he tells me what to where and stuff, which I don't like, but I still listen to him, I just can't leave him, it is to difficult, and I don't want to see him hurting more Thanks for the reply, doubt people would reply to be honest x
I have no problem being honest. Or blunt.

Your boyfriend controls you in every way possible. He manipulates you by saying he'll hurt himself if you leave. He needs to grow the **** up and show some respect not only to you, but himself also.

If you seriously want to come out of this alive, leave and don't look back.
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Old Jun 07, 2011, 05:40 PM
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I have no problem being honest. Or blunt.

Your boyfriend controls you in every way possible. He manipulates you by saying he'll hurt himself if you leave. He needs to grow the **** up and show some respect not only to you, but himself also.

If you seriously want to come out of this alive, leave and don't look back.
It's difficult though, what if he does hurt himself?
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Old Jun 07, 2011, 06:36 PM
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Then that is HIS choice. You are not responsible for anyone's actions except your own.

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Old Jun 08, 2011, 12:39 PM
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But I'm scared, you don't understand...Theirs another reason, I love him...It's hard to say in a community I have lost so much trust over...
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Old Jun 08, 2011, 03:17 PM
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Of course you're scared. I'm scared just reading it!
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Old Jun 08, 2011, 03:31 PM
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Ask him if he loves you!!
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Old Jun 08, 2011, 06:40 PM
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I'll talk to him about it in a week, promise, is will be our aniversary then
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Old Jun 11, 2011, 11:51 AM
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It's over I ended it with him, now I'm worried because he begged me not to leave him outside the pub, he was literally down on his knees and he won't stop texting me, I feel really bad now
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Old Jun 11, 2011, 12:34 PM
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I feel really bad now
Why?

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Old Jun 11, 2011, 12:36 PM
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Why?

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Because he is falling apart on Facebook, telling me how sorry he is, I just feel like I have done something wrong, or something I shant have done
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Old Jun 11, 2011, 01:14 PM
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we need to know how to wash our clothes (Look at a thread about it at tis forum) and we need to know how to let go people who could damage us.
If we learn it we start to have friends.
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Old Jun 11, 2011, 06:16 PM
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Angel
we need to know how to wash our clothes (Look at a thread about it at tis forum) and we need to know how to let go people who could damage us.
If we learn it we start to have friends.
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Old Jun 11, 2011, 07:35 PM
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I'm glad you found the strength to end it with him. He was only going to damage you more.
Now delete him from facebook and block him. Cut all ties.
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Old Jun 16, 2011, 01:14 PM
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I'm glad to hear it is over!!
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Old Jun 16, 2011, 02:25 PM
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Angel just wondering how it's going? I'm also glad to hear it's over it sounded like an unhealthy relationship - he was being very selfish. *hugs*
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Old Jun 23, 2011, 11:58 AM
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I have bruises on my neck , I told him no, wasn't ready, we have it everyday, but he still did it, he is blaming me for saying no, so much control!!

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Old Jun 23, 2011, 12:16 PM
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Because he is falling apart on Facebook, telling me how sorry he is, I just feel like I have done something wrong, or something I shant have done
Darling he will say he's sorry a thousand times and promise you heaven and earth, no you didn't do anything wrong you know what you want in life and it is a healthy relationship, something he is not able to commit too or give.

You need to take care of yourself not him, he will drag you into the hell he created for himself.

You can walk away you have a choice, stay strong.
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Old Jun 23, 2011, 12:21 PM
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I'm scared, very scared,

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