It's over and I don't know how to feel....

It's over and I don't know how to feel, we both have very busy work schedules. We never had time to ourselves there was always "something" one of us had to deal with "for work" when we were together. Today was the first time we had to see each other face to face in nearly 5 months. Over the last few months it was clear it will not work but today I felt when seeing him on the airport "I don't want to let him go" but the part of me "the emotionless part, the work part" took over and we ended it....like one more business transaction.............. nrrrr!

The sad part is I still love him if we just had more time for ourselves it could have worked..........

It is risky to start a relationship unless you can fully commit to and invest in the other person.

If you ended on good terms, then you can at least count on keeping him as a friend. Maybe if your lives change in the future (like having a less-demanding work schedule), the two of you can give it another shot.

I'm sorry that the relationship had to end. I hate break-ups. I hope you are able to take some time to yourself to "mourn" the loss, and make peace with it. I've often made the mistake of not giving myself the time and space to reflect on things, feel the pain or regret (or whatever), and then move on. I hope you don't make the same mistake that I did (and cause yourself more pain than necessary).

Maybe you should schedule a girl's night? A little time with some close friends can be very helpful after a break-up (in my experience).

*Hugs*

It ended on good terms, there is a lot I will miss about him it is frustrating to know I did it to myself.

Since you ended on good terms, you two can still be together through a friendship and not as intimate. However, there is always hope! If you are on good terms, there is still a chance the relationship can return to its initial form of being more intimate. As StrongerMan stated, it is very risky if you cannot commit but the key thing is to remember you tried your best to maintain the relationship. It feels pretty awful when a relationship ends and the important thing is to not have those feelings drag you down a lot lower, so go out with friends, to a gym, etc... . In other words, turn the currently negative situation into a more positive one because it's easy to feel awful but a lot harder to feel good. My sympathies for what you're going through.