[life.is.lost]

So to start off, I'm Anna. I am an 18 year old female, graduated from high school last year, and suffer from depression. I don't know if depression is causing me to act like I am, so I'll let you judge.
Yesterday I was texting a close friend of mine and it seemed fine for a while. After she mentioned to me that her boyfriend was in town I started to get irritated.
--*backstory:* She started dating him 2 months ago. She lost her virginity to him and she's already had a pregnancy scare. I don't like him, and many of our other mutual friends don't either. She also has told me every intimate detail of their sex life. Don't think I wanted to know that, and I told her that it is personal but she kept telling me. He takes the bus (an hour drive) every weekend to see her, which I think is a little obsessive.
So anyway, after she told me I said "I wouldn't want to take up any of your precious time with your boyfriend." Now I know that it was a little harsh, and a lot of this is my fault. Long story short(er), I told her a lot of things that I had thought about her for a long time such as the fact that she is simply oblivious to the world and lacks common sense. I feel bad, but I don't think she'd ever forgive me.
Actually, I'm not sure that I want to be friends again. Over the years we've been friends she has been the cause of lots of irritation and stress to me. Like I said before, she has no common sense. Most of the time she acts as if she is an alien and doesn't understand earth and how it works.
Is anyone willing to share their thoughts on the situation? I know that this is pretty much my fault and please be honest with your comments. Maybe I won't take it so well but I'd appreciate at least one person telling me the truth for once.

[StrongerMan]

Friends aren't always going to think and act as we do or would like them to. It is a give and take... not black and white or all or nothing. Sometimes we do have to come to a decision as to whether we are getting back from a friendship what we are putting in. Did you feel you were depressed when you had this chat? As you probably know, depression can cloud your perception of everything in your life including relationships. It can make us irritable and make mountains from molehills in the mind. So I recommend taking time to think about what happened in this situation and see if you don't have a different perspective as time passes.

[unaluna]

You sound a lot like me at your age (and sometimes at this age, when I get in a South Park state of mind). I would have to ask, who talks to YOU this way? You might not even notice anymore (if ever you did) that you are being spoken to so disrespectfully, so inconsiderately, so unlovingly. That is how some families are, that is not how ALL families are, that is not how you have to continue to live your life. Find a therapist who can teach you to be a more loving person, it will pay off.

[cin1]

Originally Posted by life.is.lost

So to start off, I'm Anna. I am an 18 year old female, graduated from high school last year, and suffer from depression. I don't know if depression is causing me to act like I am, so I'll let you judge.
Yesterday I was texting a close friend of mine and it seemed fine for a while. After she mentioned to me that her boyfriend was in town I started to get irritated.
--*backstory:* She started dating him 2 months ago. She lost her virginity to him and she's already had a pregnancy scare. I don't like him, and many of our other mutual friends don't either. She also has told me every intimate detail of their sex life. Don't think I wanted to know that, and I told her that it is personal but she kept telling me. He takes the bus (an hour drive) every weekend to see her, which I think is a little obsessive.
So anyway, after she told me I said "I wouldn't want to take up any of your precious time with your boyfriend." Now I know that it was a little harsh, and a lot of this is my fault. Long story short(er), I told her a lot of things that I had thought about her for a long time such as the fact that she is simply oblivious to the world and lacks common sense. I feel bad, but I don't think she'd ever forgive me.
Actually, I'm not sure that I want to be friends again. Over the years we've been friends she has been the cause of lots of irritation and stress to me. Like I said before, she has no common sense. Most of the time she acts as if she is an alien and doesn't understand earth and how it works.
Is anyone willing to share their thoughts on the situation? I know that this is pretty much my fault and please be honest with your comments. Maybe I won't take it so well but I'd appreciate at least one person telling me the truth for once.

you could have said you wanted to spend time with her when it was convenient . if she is a true friend, she will come around and ya'll can talk about it or maybe not, just let it lie. if you did offend her, apologize and go from there. if it is your fault, own up to it, but don't take blame when it isn't yours to take. hoping good things for you.

[life.is.lost]

Well, now that it has a few days since this happened, I haven't talked to her and she hasn't tried to talk to me. Maybe it's just better that we stay away from each other. Thanks everyone for the advice.