[JeanneDoe]

My ex contacted me. He wants me back again.
We already broke up twice, his doing.
He admits he has issues, says he is sorry, knows he should have been better.
He says he pushed me away, he knows its wrong.
He says he wants me in his life no matter what.

I dont know what to do!
I love him, I miss him, but I dont want to be hurt again.
I have so much mixed emotion around this.

If you want to know more you can read my blog, I talk about him a lot in in.

-Jeanne

P.S. This is eating me up inside. I have no one to talk to. I dont want to tell friends or family. I worry they will judge me. I feel like a f'up.

[JeanneDoe]

it was about 4mo on 4 off 4 on and it has been about 4 off again.
I know this is probably a pattern. Part of me says stay away, part of me wants him back.

Im worried I will make the wrong choice.

[StrongerMan]

Hi JeanneDoe

Saw nobody replied yet... perused your blog. I know what you are going through is hard. You need to talk to people. They won't judge you and if they do, it's not the end of the world. That's just how people are. Filter out the good and discard the rest. But not good to isolate yourself. It might be a good idea for you to get counseling to figure out why you keep putting yourself in this situation to be hurt. He sounds immature or to have some deeper issue and is giving you all the red flags you need. Heed them. You own your emotions and your heart, not this guy.

[ACanthony]

Hello Jeanne! Wow you sound like me. My ex broke up with me (her doing) and we were on again/off again and it just toyed with me. We haven't been together for months and now we both have new partners. I don't think you can get any good 'advice.' You have to make the decision yourself. Do what your heart says. If you don't think this is a person you can be with your whole life and you just are drawn to him because you want someone, then I guess steer clear. But if you do love him and are willing to forgive him, go for it. Just go slow. I am also 27. Sometimes I think I have to get married immediately but we both need to go slow and enjoy being young.

If I were you (which I am not) I'd talk to him again...go real slow...maybe friends first...and make sure to really focus on yourself...don't feel like you can only be happy when you are happy as a couple.