[red_rose]

Frist of all I' would like to thank those of you who reply to my posts on this. 2 of all I will be making up my mine in April depending on the out come of my SSI hearing, If I get that I may have to leave P.C. for awhile till I can get things strighten out for myself. I can see nothing is going to help me by staying in this, It is time I stopped and think about myself, If I stay in this I will fall in to a deerer depression then I'm already in, I feel if I stay here I will loose my mine and ending up in some hospital for me loosing me mine,I know you all have tried to help me,I am saden that I have to do some of these things to help myself to find happyness. This time in my life I realy fell, I'm just very sad that this was what my dieing mother was trying to tell me. I have let her down ,I must have been a big disappointment to her the way I turned. I faild her and many others in my life becouse of this ,I know if I leave I'll come back to all this again, I just won't do it, I won't be able to trust anyone ever again, I know the world is full of lise,Now who do you trust or turn to when you having nothing and you have to start over with nothing and no family to fall back on to? All my life I've never did anything right and this just proves it, Scence my mother died and all this stuff has happen to me I know I suffer from depression and maybe more,I thought I was gointg to be ok with out have a mental disorder,Sence it is in my family. would you all do the same thing there? I just don't know what else to do this mess,If I don't get it (SSI) I gues I'll become homeless, Anything is better then this!!!!!!!! Anone heard of the song SimplePlan Untitled ? Well that how I feel..

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

We must all follow the PATH that will lead us to HAPPINESS.... your path will be different from mine, from ours.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[LMo]

Hey - good luck to you Red_rose! I'm pulling for you!

so am i! i hope you come back to PC when you feel like it. xoxoxo pat

[wisewoman]

Red Rose please speak with agencies in your area that haelp people who are facing homelessness and no income. I don't know where you live but if you like I can google what is available in your area. It is important to hold on, look for hope. Obviously you are a compassionate person. It's okay to have to start over again without stuff because stuff means nothing. A safe quiet home with a mattress on the floor and a shower is about what I require. Good luck.

[red_rose]

Frist of all I want to explain this, after I had post this, he had told me he wanted to work things out ,( I don't want you to leave) So now I don't know what to beleve or what do on this whole thing,I'm so confused on things or where there are. I don't know whearther to beleve this or not. I can I trust him after all this . Now what is this a nother qult trick or what,I just don't know what to make of all this stuff any more, I know everyone has tried to help in this,I'm @ apoint I just don't know anything on anything more.