Relationships (great title, huh?)

Hi, I need to vent a little. Or rather, I guess I need to express myself. Here goes: lately, I have been down. A lot of it , I think, has to do with not being around people much. It just seems like, there's something everyday. I feel like my life is off balance.

I am going to see my therapist tomorrow. I like seeing her. But she broke my trust last year. And I think I need to address it. She said some things that really hurt me. And I still think about it. I don't feel close to her when I'm not in her office. Even though she helps me.

I have a job. It's through a program that helps people w/ mental health issues. I just have this weird feeling. There's a woman there who I've been very close to ever since I started working there. But she's staff there, a supervisor. So we really can't be friends. Anyway, I feel like our relationship is changing. She seems distant. Cold even. There's been an obvious to me change in the way she communicates with me. And I feel...sick of her. I wonder what I've done. To make her act this way towards me. I don't think I've done anything different. But I feel judged by her. IDK. And at the same time, I just wanna be like, f*** this, I've done nothing wrong. I'm a good person. I'm awesome, and you don't matter, lady. Maybe our wires got crossed. Maybe we're both acting weird.

OK well, I guess that's it.

Well it's possible that she is having issues with her feelings.

She could have felt something for you and now feels guilty about it, or maybe she is in a new relationship and feels the need to put some distance between the two of you.