I'm such a creep

I thought she liked me but I think it was pure infatuation. I screwed it all up by being too cold and couldn't respond properly. Still, when we had a night together--no intercourse, but thats beside the point--she was VERY aggressive, I can't tell if it was just a sexual thing or not.

I've never been good at "picking up" on the facial expressions, etc, of other people. I suppose I don't have the confidence

If she knew the way I'm in such turmoil now, She'd probably think I was some Super creepy person.

It might feel good If I knew that she still had some feelings towards me. But I screwed this one up.

But, graduations tommorow, and I don't know if I'll ever see her again.

why was she aggressive?

If you feel that strongly for her, I would take some time to think things over on your own (you sound very emotional), let her do the same and make sure she has your contact info. I wouldn't pressure her or anything. Hopefully you had the chance to at least give her the opportunity to reconnect and left things on a good note when you were exchanging congratulations on school completion. Don't blame yourself. Just leave it in her hands and if nothing comes of it, at least you made yourself available. I don't think you should be upset at what could be something you were just going through due to this anticipation of transition/graduating. Open yourself up as well. She may just be someone you connected with for that time, but there are still people out there for you to meet you haven't met yet. Best to you.

Well I mean she was agressive in the way she invited me over and that look she gave me with those crazy eyes and then wrapped her legs around me, etc.

I was going through a phase where I was too cynical to love, or even have sex. Can anyone relate to that?

She was really into me but now that I graduated, it's all gone.

I don't think you're a creep. It sounds more like you have some issues within yourself that you need to deal with first. It is better to feel healthy internally than to get into a relationship when you're not emotionally ready. That includes sex, too.

I know it's hard, but sometimes it is better to work on yourself so you can be the best you that you can be. Is there no way to stay friends with her? Graduation doesn't mean losing someone forever unless you let it.

I just want a speedball or something to be injected directly into the jugular...