[Lexicon78]

I have this thing where I have to isolate almost all the time or I get extremely irritated and often end up in angry rages because I have to put up with people. I stay in my apartment and only go out to see my dad, go to counseling appointments (when I feel like it), and to go shopping...that's it. That's pretty much 3 places a week. After doing all that I feel so overwhelmed by the socialization and being around people that I just lock myself away...and ya know what? I'm actually comfortable doing this.

Although I do live with my bf, I try to not socialize with him as much as possible...but do communicate when I need to. I get irritated with him almost everyday, though.

I just don't feel like I'm like anyone else around here (in my area) and don't know anyone I can really truly relate to. So I hide away and find no enjoyment or satisfaction in socializing with others just for "fun." I'd rather be sitting in an intensive therapy session than socialize just for the socialization. If you're just socializing you're not really getting anything accomplished, but in therapy you do. Maybe that's the thing. I have no clue.

Does anyone else deal with this?

I used to socialise a lot when my children were small. But not now. I rather be by myself at home or in a deserted place. I avoid people. Even online, I don't go on msn or whatever chat. Sometime I will go in this chatroom but very rarely.

I can't really explain why. I just don't.

[Sabrina]

I have to socialize quite often due to my husband's nature and sporting activities but I find that I would often just prefer to stay at home, where nobody has to see me. Sometimes I don't even open the curtains. But then I moan when I don't get out much - so I don't really know what I want!

Lexi - I think you achieve and accomplish something outstanding every single day - just by everything that you do!