[keb88]

im 24 years old i havent yet found anybody or anywhere i fit in... i feel like in some places i come off asa bad guy or a d*ck and in other spots people think im a joke .. i dont know what im doing wrong at all, life has been a joke for me pretty much been alone my whole life except for a few years had a couple friends and had my cousins but thats about it.. i workd like everyday when i dropped out with my family never made any friends since school..idk nobody gets me at all,thats for sure ,i know its not there fault so yeah.. thats where im at if anybody feels the same way hit me up when im on line im bored and alone.

((((Keb)))) welcome to PC. I am sure your thread will fill up in no time. Many of us can relate!

[Leed]

I've always felt like a square peg in a round hole. LOL In high school, I didn't feel like I fit in anywhere. I had a couple of friends who "tolerated" me, but THEY fit in with groups where I did not. So they'd go on with THOSE groups, and I'd be left out. I'd try to fit in, but it just didn't work out.

All thru my life, I've felt different. I can't put my finger on it. I'm "shy" but once I get to know someone I'm a GOOD friend. Trouble is, I let people use me, which has been a problem all my life. After they're done with me, they split. LOL

I have one life=long friend, whom I've had since I was 4 yrs old. She's always been there, and always will be. I can count on here for anything, and that's really great. So I guess I can't complain too much cause not many people can say they have a friend for that many years!

So you're not alone. I'm sure there's a LOT of us out here! It may not help knowing that, but maybe it will. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

[Jan1212]

What were the situations where people thought you were a joke? Was it mostly your own perception of the way things were going? Some people can be cruel. They don't understand what's going on, they assume you do'nt like them because you do'nt want to talk or reach out to them

What you mean when you said that you dropped out of your family? Does that mean you cut ties with them when you moved out? Sometimes family can be of good base support to get to know your 'place' or values. Sometimes at this age you are not sure where you belong, with career, relationship, independence, money, it's common- so don't blame yourself it will pass. I am at the same age as you. Believe me, I went through a difficult time and you might say I still am. How long have you been feeling this way?

this is a good one..

I guess we all got our reasons for feeling detached from people, the world maybe even life?

I went to 8 schools even before I hit high school...I never got to know the other kids and therefore I spose never got to know myself cos others kinda take the burden off self searching....it gets shared around and there aint nuthin more productive than groups of humans with similar ideas...

just look at bands!

so yeah movin' on and I lacked social reflexes felt better alone but still not so good but better than being uncomfortable and trying to fit in always got me in trouble and I still can't do it for very long I always end up back at just me and thats ok I'm 40 now and it's just the way it's turned out.

I've had some seriously difficult times and it was always me that was there in and out of it and looking out for myself even when I was my worst enemy I was still on my side and there is nothing wrong with not fitting in it shows strength and no-one can take that away once you got it.

I expect to not change much cos I don't mind so much that I 'fit out'

there are plenty of us out there in here and all over so really?....

we do fit into our own group of misfits it's pretty cool

[keb88]

Originally Posted by Jan1212

What were the situations where people thought you were a joke? Was it mostly your own perception of the way things were going? Some people can be cruel. They don't understand what's going on, they assume you do'nt like them because you do'nt want to talk or reach out to them

What you mean when you said that you dropped out of your family? Does that mean you cut ties with them when you moved out? Sometimes family can be of good base support to get to know your 'place' or values. Sometimes at this age you are not sure where you belong, with career, relationship, independence, money, it's common- so don't blame yourself it will pass. I am at the same age as you. Believe me, I went through a difficult time and you might say I still am. How long have you been feeling this way?

i meant when i dropped out of school i went straight to work with my family and on days i wasnt working i was hanging out with family that were alot older then me and we were just doing drugs together and they treated me like their little cousin or nephew it wasnt like i met them somewhere and they wanted me to come hang out it.. just been in alot of social situations where i dont relate or i feel people think i think im better than them or its people that are shady ,judgemental or im not good enough for i guess because of the fact they see me with no job, cheap car quiet and just nothing to offer. havent foudn anyone that understands or is like me , im not good with first impressions at all... i was cool with quite a few people in the town i just moved from(when i had nice car,dirtbike,streetbike license,money,wasnt depressed ) but when i left my girl friend and the town i found out i had no real friends .. only a couple people came up to see me and they dont come around anymore not even a text or phone call... but yea,im def notthe type to be trying to prove myself to anyone and since im new around here ontop of anxiety /depersonalization , being a quiet person and broke im treated like a joke.(sarcasm,ignored or people jus being "nice")because of my anxiety problems... but yea im definently tryin to meet some people that can relate so hit me up!. and thanks to thoes trying to help there isnt too many people out there that actually want to see the next person do good like that so im glad to see there still is SOME people out there ike that other than myself..

[keb88]

been alone for 2 years and am not able to meet a single person its depressing

I constantly feel like a joke/mistake everywhere I go. I'm beginning to turn into a recluse and I hate it. I have trouble meeting people too. I've felt like an outcast all of my life. I don't really fit in with any crowd. Keep your head up high. Find your interests and explore - that's what I need to start doing myself.

[keb88]

anxiety and the hyperfocus or depersonalization whatever u call it is why so many people treat me like a joke .. im tired of people lol havent met anyone cool in the 24 years ive been living ,need to get out of this little town and meet some people with similar problems and get the right anxiety meds