i actually cant take this anymore

none of my family gives a **** about me. none of them help me when i need it. my sisters just judgmental my mom won't see things any other way besides in her perspective my brothers just an idiot. everytime i try to talk to them i get no support and no one understands me. and my father left us. sweet!
my dad, boy he doesnt give a flying **** about me. i never met him and he wasnt even there for my ****** birth. why. what did i do to deserve so much hate in my life. my moms struggling my sister got kicked out of college my brother never even went. my lifes just a black hole that sucks up all happiness and light. idk if i wanna continiue to live this way. my sister even contacted my father and spoke to him for the first time in 13 years last summer and he still did nothing. not even an apology. nothing. i spoke with him and he had nothing to say i dont get it im his daughter how could he not love me and hearing my voice for the first time had no affect on him. he doesnt give a ****. hes the devil. out of all the men i couldve shared dna with it was him. i just dont want to continue this way, i really am sick of living. im just unhappy. i feel unloved useless and sad everyday, i have no future no money nothing. i have nothing and i am nothing. death just sounds so beautiful everyday to me.

Well to look at the glass half full - you got nobody holding you back, nobody to answer to, either. Sometimes all that loving opinion comes with a pretty high price. You can't change what you got, you can only make the best of it.

Easy girl, your very young and at this point in your life your already confused of who you are and what you want to be. Nothing is more precious then life it self. I'm sure its very hard for your dad to communicate with you. I agree, he needs to help you and start some form of relationship. At your age you have the opportunity to become whatever you want. Maybe there are some activities you can start doing to occupy your time. Now is the time when you need to make new friends. You have a lot going on in your life and everything seems its crashing down and dont seem it can get better. I believe things are pretty rock bottom for you so with that said they can only get better. I believe you need to talk to a counsler that can help guide you. It always feels better to talk things out, even if you dont get the answer your looking for. It also sounds like your family may need your support, try getting along better with them. Again, your very young and have a promising life ahead. You can always make a difference. I wish you happiness, hope things get better.

You don't choose your family, but you can choose who you have in your life. Don't waste time with people who suck the life out of you. As cliche as it is, your life is what you make of it. If you want happiness, find happiness. You can't make people love you or be who you need them to be. Accept it and spend time with or find people who accept and love you the way you are. If you value yourself and know that you are worth loving, guess what, love finds you.

I learned a long time ago that the only person I can count on is ME. So I take care of me and accept responsibility for my own happiness. You can't change the past, and who the hell knows what the future holds. Live for right now. Choose to be happy RIGHT NOW!!!!! You deserve it, you deserve to be happy!

I can relate so well to your life and your family situation. In a nutshell my family is fully flakes and is (was?) completely dysfunctional. I am the black sheep, my family cares nothing about what happens to me and has long since even asked or offered help when I needed it. i left them over a decade ago and have not looked back since. I understand completely and being older as I am I just hope you take my words to heart as I've been where you are.

living your life and finding success is your best revenge on them. You can find happiness and fulfillment in your life, even create a new family in the sense of finding people worth of having in your life that actually are truly friends, supportive and loving. Family, beyond genes is nothing. Sure i n an ideal situation, you end up in a family that is loving and caring but you didn't get to choose them and if you end up with dysfunctional jerks as you and I have, you have to just let go of the idea that just because she's your sister she should act like one or your dad should be one.. Just find the things you need from other people and its even better than family if you ask me

hang in there. I know its hard some days to hang on and keep going but there are better days ahead.

*hugs*
~S4