Feeling jealous, low, and alone.

I'm sorry guys. I'm always so confusing, I can be here during the morning and be happy and joke and play. Then later in the day I'm a wreck. I hate that, it bothers me.

Right now I'm a little disappointed about my sister leaving tomorrow to go move to Washington D.C with her boyfriend. She's taking my nephew along with her. I'm sad that she's leaving because she's my only friend (even though she can be a witch), she's all I have. I'll miss seeing my nephew grow up as well...that really hurts because I wanted to be a large factor in his life.

I'm also jealous about my Mom reaching out so far to do do do for Dana and the baby. When I had my baby my mom never once thought about moving to York, PA, where I was living at the time. My mom is going to alter and sacrifice her whole life to move to Washington to be with Dana. My kids and I are going to be here alone....no friends....no family. When I leave this house if I'm not at Wal Mart I'm at my mom's, that's it. So I guess Wal mart will be my only world.

Makes me mad Mom wouldn't stay here for me and my kids. It also makes me mad that she watches Elijah almost every single day and she has never once watched my kids. Then when I'm over there all she does is complain how my kids get into everything.

I'm feeling so low right now, I feel like I'm being abandoned. I came here to this %#@&#! hole state to be with them and now they're leaving me here. Ticks me off.

(((((((((((((((( desirae )))))))))))))))))

Sounds to me like your feelings are perfectly understandable. You feel that you are being abandoned.

Do they know how you feel?........... Is it possible to have a civil chat with them about how you feel?

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time.

Take care.

It's understandable. You are the responsible one, doing everything you can to take care of your children. It's not easy though, and we could all use some help sometimes. But since you are trying so hard, your mother worries about your sister and directs her attention that way. It isn't fair. I don't know how it would go over to tell your mother how you are feeling, but maybe you can find a way to show her that even though you cope most of the time, you could use some help too.

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My parents do that to me too. I used to get so upset. My sister and I had a baby two wweks apart. My parents did EVERYTHING for her. They watch her son two or three times a week. He is so close to them. They didnt even watch my daughter until she was 9 months old!!! They had only seen her like 5 times! She didnt even know them.They still have only baby sitted like 5 times now and shes almost two. I didnt understand at first, but my sister is so irresponsible my mom just does whatever it takes to watch out for the kid. Shes so busy with him though she never realized she was barely around for my kids. My whole childhood, I was the responsible one who had to pay my own way, work, get good grades. My little sister got away with everything, got it all paid for and just had it easier. My older sister is the same way but she got married, moved and is on the outs with us a little right now cause she said a lot of REALLY bad stuff to us cause shes a moron puppet pulled along by her nutso hubby. So needless to so I totally know what its like and its hard to get over. Theres not much you can do about it because you cant change the sister and moms always watch over their babies. So, just remember its somewhat of a compliment, youre mom trusts you to take care of your kids on your own. Otherwise she wouldnt leave

It was a lot like that when I was a kid too. I was the mommy while my mom left us at home all the time alone. I cooked and made sure my sister had everything she needed, I even spanked her when necessary.

When my mom became a junkie and abandoned us I went all over the place from family member, to facilities, to group homes, and institutions. I went all over the U.S. After my sister left a few family members she went back home to mom's and has lived with her since. I think they are closer because they have been together longer. IDK.....it's pathetic of me to be jealous...I really shouldn't, I just think I deserve help every now and then because I've done a lot for mom, I've paid her water bill a million times now. I will also be very very disappointed if she leaves me here.

))))))) ))) des ((((( (( ( you're such a sweetie, why don't you have more friends? Try doing some volunteer work. Like at your local thrift store. Not only do you meet lots of really nice folks, you get first dibs on the goodies that get donated.
I've met great folks of all ages that way. !!!

Try to let it be their loss...... maybe it's time for you to move on in a new direction that takes care of you and your kids. Hang tuff, you can do it. Change is hard, that's why we don't do it 'til we are forced to...... sometimes we have to create a functioning family out of our friends.......

maybe Des your mom seems so distant with you because she feels guilty for the past and is reminded of the mistakes she's made everytime you're around...confronting the past is the hardest thing for any of us to deal with my friend...if you can talk to her about how you feel about the past about her moving about everything that is going on with you and how and why you're feeling the way you are...don't let them go without letting them know Des...it may surprise you and if nothing else it may give you some piece of mind...

(((((desirae)))))

Ya know I think you have every right to be jealous and hurt and angry and so many more other emotions. I know I would. It sounds like for one reason or another your mom is favoring your sis and her family over you and yours. That's so not right.

You can come back to PA and I'll be your friend and take care of you and your kids!

We're actually considering York....you know where that's at?...lol

Thanks all for your support, it helps to know that you all understand what I mean.

i'm sorry that you're feeling abandoned. family can really hurt us. and it's universal.....hang in there, pat

my Dad used to hunt in York when i was a kid. beautiful country.....