[Jessy93]

My boyfriend of almost 2 ears ended things a few days ago suddenly... We are in college and live in Chicago. I really don't know what to do. My mom lives in Florida with my grandparents, my father killed himself when I was 5. When I graduated high school I moved from Chicago to Florida with my mom but decided to move home to Chicago after 5 months. I have aunts and uncles here. I met my boyfriend when I moved back and he has really been there for me... I didn't make a lot of friends easily when I came to my college in Chicago so I either hung out with high school friends or my boyfriend. I am so miserable. I don't talk to my roommates and I just feel so alone. I was already depressed and not liking my school a lot, my boyfriend being around made me happy. Now he just randomly wants to be indapendant and I am devastated. I can't even leave my school bc I am in so much debt if I dot get a degree ill never pay it off. I don't even want to be alive anymore. When I had thoughts of suicide I would remind myself that my bf would be miserable, but seeing as he doesn't want to be with me, I feel like nothing is holding me back.

[Piraeus]

Hi Jessy93. I'm sorry for your loss. It must be very difficult for you right now. Can you call your mom for support? Maybe she can give you some motherly advice. What about going to the school councilor. They can at least point you in the right direction for help. Suicide is never an option. It would devastate a lot of people.You do have people that care about you.Please call 1-800-SUICIDE for help right away. We will be here for you.

Sincerely,

Piraeus

[hamster-bamster]

Suicide runs in families. So you are high risk. You need to take this seriously. Your goal is to reach that point when you do not base your decisions on whether to live on the concern for the bf's possibly being devastated.

You need to figure out why you do not like school. If you are depressed, then you need treatment. If you do not like the subject matter for real (and not just because you currently are not interested in any activity as a symptom of your depression), then you need a new major. Learning something you do not enjoy and then having to work in the field you do not like just to pay off your FAFSA loans would be a very grim future for you. Please start by following Piraeus's recommendations, and then get together with whoever is responsible for guiding students in major selection at your college. You need to take the issue seriously. You basically used the boyfriend for comfort and support, and you have lost that crutch. A person who has lost her crutch can easily fall and hurt herself pretty badly. Be very careful. As Piraeus said, we will be here for you and hope to get positive updates from you, eventually.

[Quick Eye]

don't feel down. im in a similar position. my gf left when I made her my world. before we got together I was a real badass. drank and drugs constantly. I heated on almost everygirl I dated. I met her and continued using until I got on probation again(like 10 millionth time haha) after awhile I quit using and seeing my friends to get out of trouble all the time. so I had like no friends and I just made her my world now shes gone and I got nothing except maybe one friend? just remember lifes a dance, youll learn as you go. suicide is easy. since you came here I assuming youre not lazy. girl get on your hands and fight the pitpull like a dog. things will get better if you stick with it.