[tacoqueen1993]

I never used to watch pornography. It never used to do anything for me. until the last year or so I started masturbating frequently, and then I started getting into bdsm. I have a lot of fantasies. I have a partner that I am committed to and we have sex usually a few times a day. I like being abused,and insulted, having clothes pins on my nipples, I like It when my boyfriend wears a ski mask, and I call him daddy, He even gets annoyed with me wanting to have rough intercourse with me sometimes. I have fantasies of being raped by relatives, having sex with a women, or a threesome and I was molested as a child which is odd because you would think that would never cross my mind?

I feel really dirty perverted and disgusting at times. and almost ashamed for my sexual problems. I don't even know If It Is even a problem. I'm a young adult, and I feel like this kind of behavior might be odd given my age, and gender. I even have fantasies of my partner having sex with someone else in front of me, I sometimes watch pornography and pretend like I'm watching my boyfriend have intercourse with another women on the screen. Which is odd because I'm a very insecure, jealous, possessive girlfriend and I don't even know If I could deal with it. WAIT i know I WOULDN'T be able to deal with that,

I like a lot of stimulation all at once, and roleplaying. I feel like It's almost high after I get off, and have pleasing intercourse. Sometimes I'll feel irritated until I get off. I will also get paranoid at times while I'm masturbating that other people (roommates or neighbors) can hear my vibrator/pornography. If I was home by myself more often I would probably masturbate more than 3 times a day. I thought guys really only jacked off a bunch. I don't know how to feel about all of this. I have ruined relationships before with cheating, I cheated on my current boyfriend already with another girl, and If It wasn't a girl we wouldn't be together right now. He still flipped out, and he was still really upset, but I was able to make him forgive me for It. I really don't want to ruin another relationship. I don't see myself getting bored of him, I mean I love him, I just get worried sometimes.

[FaithlessCat]

Hi Tacoqueen,

I was never molested ( that I am aware of ) but from pretty much the time I lost my virginity at 15 I started using porn, I loved getting drunk or stoned so I would feel 'not in control'.

I have never been one to 'make love' I've always been very ... not aggresive but really INTO sex.

a few years ago I started to get into an online game that allowed me to act out my fantasies and I became more and more perverse in my roleplay, the more sadistic or masochistic the better. Really pushing the boundaries roleplaying incest, beastiality, Rape, Gang rape etc etc the whole nine yards and the more into I got the more I wanted to act it out in Real life, it was really starting to become a problem until my Husband put his foot down.

For me, I think this was actually a 'Manic phase' and since I came away from what was 'triggering' me. I have been ok.

I still get phases where I literally ache if I dont orgasm as much as possible and I get so irratated it actually annoys me as much as my husband but I have learned to deal with that myself.

I think it's pretty common for women to fantasise about very dark things, so I wouldnt worry too much about that, but if you are looking for an alternative 'high' in order to save your relationship, you could try Exercise.

I now circuit train, box and Weightlift 5 mornings a week and it def helps to expend all that pent up energy and tension . I really hope you find a way to be ok with yourself and your needs.

[timj]

My wife has an incredibly high sex drive. We were having problems in our marriage that ended up with her having an emotional affair (EA) (chat and skype sex with multiple men and women found through Ashley Madison and Dreambooks: Adult Pen Pals). We are currently in reconciliation, she has left the EA behind and I have left my addiction to games behind and now we are addicted to sex with each other. It's more than that, we have a new level of intimacy, but I have a new-found understanding of just how high a woman's sex drive can be. I can barely keep up with her, but it has been a fun, fun reconciliation ride (in between the crying and horrible feelings and remorse and every other emotion you can imagine).

[Sharp_Lace]

There is nothing at all wrong with you. All this means you are a woman, your a young adult and such.

You could check out fetlife.com It's like a social media website for kinky people. You can look around and see what sort of things are perfectly normal for people to be into.

Good luck