[throwawaymom]

I rely on this prayer daily. Today I probably said it a dozen times. There are so many things in my life that I have no control over and accepting that is so difficult for me. The root of my problem is that I am unemployed and have no income. I need my own space and without a job I am dependent on my daughter and her husband. I appreciate their help, I do, but I miss my home and my privacy. The daughter who lives in my house has three kids. The baby is two years old and I miss her so much. I don't go to the house because I wind up arguing with my daughter. My 14 year old grand daughter moved in with her paternal grandmother, out of state, to get away from her mother so I don't get to see her either. As for her oldest, my grand son, he adores his Mom and since she doesn't want me around he chooses not to visit. There was a time when we lived happily together. Then I lost my job and my daughter began to run with a very bad group of people, many of whom use drugs. She probably knew these people before I became unemployed, but with me at home all the time she spent more and more time with them running the streets. Anyway, when I finally told her enough was enough she became violent and I left. Long story short, I've never been back. I'm just sad.

[Gus1234U]

we cannot, in any sense, control others, nor can they control us,,, we only control ourselves in ways we think might be useful to us. that is what i believe. tho it's very hard to practice, i have nothing better to do than to get my spiritual house in order... one never knows when things will change~

i hope you find a way to inner peace, and outer strength~
Gus