Serenity Prayer

I rely on this prayer daily. Today I probably said it a dozen times. There are so many things in my life that I have no control over and accepting that is so difficult for me. The root of my problem is that I am unemployed and have no income. I need my own space and without a job I am dependent on my daughter and her husband. I appreciate their help, I do, but I miss my home and my privacy. The daughter who lives in my house has three kids. The baby is two years old and I miss her so much. I don't go to the house because I wind up arguing with my daughter. My 14 year old grand daughter moved in with her paternal grandmother, out of state, to get away from her mother so I don't get to see her either. As for her oldest, my grand son, he adores his Mom and since she doesn't want me around he chooses not to visit. There was a time when we lived happily together. Then I lost my job and my daughter began to run with a very bad group of people, many of whom use drugs. She probably knew these people before I became unemployed, but with me at home all the time she spent more and more time with them running the streets. Anyway, when I finally told her enough was enough she became violent and I left. Long story short, I've never been back. I'm just sad.

we cannot, in any sense, control others, nor can they control us,,, we only control ourselves in ways we think might be useful to us. that is what i believe. tho it's very hard to practice, i have nothing better to do than to get my spiritual house in order... one never knows when things will change~

i hope you find a way to inner peace, and outer strength~
Gus