[rigaschuckler]

Hello friends,
I hope you all remember me. I was away, studying, taking stock of all those things happening to me, and analyzing everything.
I have been meditating continuously for 2 months, and i guess it has an effect on me now.
Now i am gonna talk about some problems i have been suffering these days.
I have had a complex life, somewhat eccentric which would not be comprehended by most of the people. Growing in a house situated in a small hill, without any friends, bad painful childhood, not much educated relatives (still struggling in between the modernity and antiquity), property disputes, wranglings, dad's alcoholic abuses, oh god..it would seem like a poignant movie story
Anyway i would like to move away from here, not because i hate this place( In fact i love it, its so strange and somehow forms a part in me) but if i stay there again i fear i would go crazy. I don't know what will happen next but i have belief in me and my almighty.
In my family there is one guy, my paternal uncle, who always treats me very badly. Its so disgusting. For example whenever we would be having some family gathering, he wouldn't even look at me or speak to me. If i did speak, eh would say some stinging word, like (indirectly) 'are you still a good for nothing still?' This man is 40 years senior than me but he still behaves like this.His son and i grew up together but he also hates me. (It is a long story which started in our childhood's). This stuff makes me sad and in my teen years i vehemently avoided this guy, about which he made such a fuss back then. He hates our entire family, even my disabled brother.
I know life is just a bubble and it is made for loving each other.But in my case i never had anything. These were the people i had. At the sometime it makes me sad that i would also have made some mistakes which made them act like that. But i cannot tell them now, because they would abuse me and humiliate me. So i agree, sadly , that sometimes i have been vengeful.
I know it would be difficult for anybody to answer a stranger's question, but i would like to ask you what would you have done in these types of situations? The same as me? So am i justifiable for my acts?
Have a nice day:

[Macrick]

The reason why your paternal uncle will not look you in the eye coz he disrespect you as a human being. His mind is full of contempt towards you.

Do not engage with such person, under any circumtances unless it's absolutely necessary. Once you have financial stability, move out & associate with people who respects you as a human being. Hope this helps.

Last but not least, under no circumstances that you open up your feelings about your uncle to any other family members. Coz, he will get the wind of it & use it against you. Be well.

[Colleen1M1]

Originally Posted by rigaschuckler

Hello friends,
I hope you all remember me. I was away, studying, taking stock of all those things happening to me, and analyzing everything.
I have been meditating continuously for 2 months, and i guess it has an effect on me now.
Now i am gonna talk about some problems i have been suffering these days.
I have had a complex life, somewhat eccentric which would not be comprehended by most of the people. Growing in a house situated in a small hill, without any friends, bad painful childhood, not much educated relatives (still struggling in between the modernity and antiquity), property disputes, wranglings, dad's alcoholic abuses, oh god..it would seem like a poignant movie story
Anyway i would like to move away from here, not because i hate this place( In fact i love it, its so strange and somehow forms a part in me) but if i stay there again i fear i would go crazy. I don't know what will happen next but i have belief in me and my almighty.
In my family there is one guy, my paternal uncle, who always treats me very badly. Its so disgusting. For example whenever we would be having some family gathering, he wouldn't even look at me or speak to me. If i did speak, eh would say some stinging word, like (indirectly) 'are you still a good for nothing still?' This man is 40 years senior than me but he still behaves like this.His son and i grew up together but he also hates me. (It is a long story which started in our childhood's). This stuff makes me sad and in my teen years i vehemently avoided this guy, about which he made such a fuss back then. He hates our entire family, even my disabled brother.
I know life is just a bubble and it is made for loving each other.But in my case i never had anything. These were the people i had. At the sometime it makes me sad that i would also have made some mistakes which made them act like that. But i cannot tell them now, because they would abuse me and humiliate me. So i agree, sadly , that sometimes i have been vengeful.
I know it would be difficult for anybody to answer a stranger's question, but i would like to ask you what would you have done in these types of situations? The same as me? So am i justifiable for my acts?
Have a nice day:

Well, I am no therapist, but I have had plenty of it.
It sounds like family is very important to you, otherwise you would not be around these people/person.
If it were me, I would politely refuse invitations to events where this person might attend. Of course you may have to open up to the invitee as to why you wont be there, but heck, why subject yourself to this all the time. Work on a relationship with other family members or get involved with someone and start a new life that does not include this uncle and cousin. Life is too short and it seems a shame that you are allowing yourself to be controlled this way.