I seem to be the trouble maker in my family

My family is me (mom) 56 daughter,30 son,27 and ex-husband, still friends.
All my other family are dead and I was an only child.
daughter and dad get along most of time, son and dad seem to get along, ex and I get along sometimes, He is a Mental abuser, even though he doesn't think so. (Oh sweetheart I was only joking) but put any combination of me and 2 others and all hell breaks loose. I'm very sensitive, and have a temper. My son is almost as sensitive as me. My daughter and I get along as long as she gets her way. If not I am called every name in the book plus some. Ex seems to play games to get to us.
I hate holidays, they seem so fake. I have depression, anxiety,add, panic attacks. I am also in a lot of pain from my job that I just retired from. Herniated disks, sciatica nerve, neuropathy in feet, osteoarthritis, and many more joint pains. My adult kids don't want to help with the house. (she won't do this, he won't do that.) No wonder I'm half nuts!!! Daughter is trying for disability, I wish they would grow up and move on. Is that wrong for me to think that?

How wealthy could we be, if we have dimes for every 'I'm only joking' we've ever heard?



No, I don't feel you are wrong for thinking that, about your grown children! Not wrong, at all. It's a living testament to the effects of mental/emotional abuse in the home. I think there's a thread down in Survivors of Abuse, that talks about why is emotional abuse dismissed or overlooked(or some similar terminology). Looking down in that forum, may help you out, not sure.

Just know, you aren't alone. Depression, panic, physical health symptoms, are all part of the effects of abuse.