Maintaining relationships and feeling valuable

Okay so I'm horribly depressed after a lot of ups and downs and going on and off my medication. This has been ongoing since around October. It's gotten to the point where I feel like I can't handle anything, which isn't even an option since I am an adult who maintains a household and the needs of my kids.

I look back at my history of relationships and how I relate to everyone in my life and I feel like there is something missing in me that others seem to possess. I feel like I don't get it and want to.

I feel like I need to be hospitalized but then I know that never really helps. I have a pdoc appt on Monday but I have a long work weekend ahead of me. How am I going to do it???! I guess I'd like to talk to like minded people about this relationship struggle. I think I'm also ADHD, but I'm diagnosed bipolar.

staying on your meds and getting stabilized would go far to improving relationships. without the ups and downs in your moods you would be better able to navigate relationships with other people. knowing yourself better will allow you to share more of yourself with others, allows more intimacy, better communication. take care.

No answers for you, but know that you aren't alone in feeling like you're missing something when it comes to relationships. Hopefully the weekend will go by quickly. Good luck with your appointment.