Help

I'm really scared right now..
I'm affraid I'm not able to build healthy relationships anymore.
I try to push everyone away because I'm so scared of being rejected.
Please, is there anyone who can tell me what to do? An article to read or something, just anything
I don't see the point in life with such a malfunction..
It feels like I've been pushed too far to recover. And if I would be able to recover, I fear I don't have the strength and the will anymore..

i know what you mean. i just came out of a 8 year relationship that really messed me up.i hate rejection silence it crushes me to go for a hug and see their eyes turn and the fear of rejection is always there. but honestly it hurts a lot but it dosent killl me.i went through the worst rejection from her the last 3 months our anniversary everything was painful, but in the end, i told myself, what is wrong with being rejected, what affect does it really have on me,it only has an affect because i let myself feel it,