Feel heart opening while talking with him,but.....

I met a man lately who is a witty and loving and well travelled,I feel my heart opening while talking with him.I v stopped dating for many years due to my health(ptsd and depression.)I m ok and back to work now,but deep down i know i still feel something stuck(but not sure what that is?).
So while talking to him,it is letting me realizing more about the inner side,it is healing me. he is not a counselor or therapist but he seems to have a gift.
I feel scary now b/c if we keep talking, i feel i m going to talk out some secrets(i was raped a few times and other bad things happened later).he likes me and will want me to be his girlfriend. I don't want to tell him those odd things, at least not so fast.
In the past i v told a few males about my bad past, they left me.
I want to know what to do....
also i don't understand why i so desire to tell those odd secrets,I v already talked everything with counselors and i m not bothered by my past in emotion anymore.....it seems i m unbalanced again?

Hey, It's ok that you want to tell him these things, it's because you trust him. trust is ok, and he seems to understand you, I wouldn't be worried about him leaving. I was raped once by my ex boyfriend and I told my boyfriend now and he's still here, of course it made him upset about it and assured me I was safe with him. Not all guys are the same, telling him is taking a chance but if you honestly and truly trust and like him, then it's all about taking chances. Has he opened up to you? I'm sure there are a few things that he wants to share and is scared to for the same reason. Just relax, wait to tell him if it's more comfortable for you, when you really have a good sense of how the relationship is. I don't think you're unbalanced, i think you just trust him and you want him to know your past, but be careful not to live in it. Some things just don't need to be relived. Good luck and don't stress

I m not sure if i can trust him enough or on a level yet....I just feel it seems there is a magic and love fm him,and it lets my heart melting.I haven't had such feelings with other men. So when i talk with other guys ,we normally only have one week time for conversation,then it will come to end.I v been talking with this man for one month,it gives me a hope that i feel i m able to share and someone also able to stay with me, and it also makes me think and progress in my soul...that's why i feel i can't control myself,i feel so much to share more.....but same time i worry,i don't know if i can trust him enough.
(each time after our conversation,it is like having a nice swim and let my nerve relaxed and i can breathe fresh air.I don't why only he can make me relaxed.)

I think, one month into the relationship and feeling the way you do about him, you need to take that leap of faith and disclose your past.

If you don't, you will fall even deeper in love and it will eat away at you; if you don't tell him AND if he chooses to leave you over it, then your heart will be further damaged.

If he cannot handle it and leaves you anyway...then he wasn't worth your time and you will know that and will recover a little faster and a little easier.

Either way it's going to be tough.....But I really don't think you should wait...

Hugs.