how is it possible to get a girlfriend if....

...you are ugly and mentally ill? like me.

in fact, I have never date a women becuse of this, becuse I know that I have no chance.

I dont havve low self-esteem, I just know my weaknesses.

both are irrelevant. I was programmed from childhood to believe I couldn't get a boyfriend because I was fat, but I don't think I am ugly. where I work, I see a large number of people on a daily basis. and yes, I judge. how do other fat ugly people get husbands if I cant? mentally ill people are in relationships all the time. I see all sorts. I do believe it has to do with self esteem. I don't believe I am worthy of a relationship because that is what I have been told all my life, therefore im not in one. if I felt better about myself, I am sure I could be in a relationship.

How can it not be irrelevant? It is that type of things that make a man unattractive. A girl can choose another guy, and she knows it.

To only have 1 weakness is bad, I have 100.

Not judging - but being attractive and good looking are two very different things!!

This isn't the most helpful information but if you believe you have nothing to offer, then that's what you'll project. You'll create that reality by believing in no other alternative. So just ask yourself if it feels true because it "is" or because you believe it to be - if this is not the life you want for yourself then your only alternative is to act like it isn't true. At least that way you'll give yourself a chance where there is none before.

I'd recommend seeing a therapist as it's a difficult hole to get out of alone.