[Cjj6]

So I finally did what I had to do, I left my boyfriend. I've been having a feeling lately that he's been seeing other girls, and I was right. I found my proof last night and told him I was done. He ended up freaking out, the name calling started and so on.
I'm trying my hardest to stop thinking about him but I just can't. I can't stop thinking what if he gets medication for his bi polar will everything change and be better?
I love him, but he's killing me emotionally.
I have to walk past his house twice every day to drop my son at daycare, if I see him and the girl he's been cheating on me with I don't know what I will do. I'm so heart broken.
He kept saying last night that he's going to ruin my life and will do anything to make me regret wasting his time ..yet it feels like I wasted mine!!
I'm hurting bad..I just want to get over him and stop thinking about him. I know I deserve so much better

All I keep thinking is "what if he tries to talk to me again and I fall for it" I feel like a thousand emotions right now. I don't know where my head is
I feel like I will never trust another person again, ever.
I can't wrap my head around that he's actually been with another girl. He still won't own up to it though.. I feel so sick and weak. I don't know what to do

[Frankbtl]

Hi Cjj6, I'm really sorry you were let down so badly by him. And it must be really painful right now, but you do know you've done the right thing don't you?
Now however hard it is right now (and I'm sure it's very hard) it has only just happened. I know it might not be a lot of comfort, but time can make all the difference in how you're feeling.
And maybe you're still feeling some love for him (doesn't always switch off just like that despite....), shock, loss, frustration, despair, abandoned, isolated..........but you are right......you do deserve so much better, so just keep holding onto that regardless.
And with time it will get easier, if it'll help to cry, talk to someone, find things to distract you, focus attention on your son........whatever works for you, just try to focus on you and getting through this to a better place.
And whatever happens with him, even if he tries to talk to you, well you know he really isn't worth it/worth your attention/worth your pain/worth risking a life/happiness you're entitled to for, don't you? It is his loss at the end of the day, you gave it your all/gave him a chance didn't you, but...................
And if you're finding it hard we're right here for you, you're not on your own in getting through/past this. You can do it!!!
Alison

[Cjj6]

Thank you so much, Alison. That means a lot to me.
It's like I feel fine one moment and the next I'm balling my eyes out. Wondering what he's doing and who he is with. This hurts so much. It feels like he doesn't care. He can't even apologize to me which hurts even more

[Marielle]

He cheated on you. That means he dated up when he was with you, because you have more class and courage than to do that to someone. You have more to offer a partner than he does, and you deserve someone who can offer you back in kind. In time you will come to see that.

Only thing you can do right now is let yourself feel your grief, cry, take a couple of days off, and treat yourself gently. Watch good movies (not romances), read, spend time with family and friends, engage yourself in your hobbies, and keep your mind active. Do some involving puzzles (sudoku, crosswords, maybe an adventure game on your computer) that require you to focus and concentrate. Eat right, get good sleep, baby yourself a bit. You love YOU for a while.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Cjj6, the fact that he hasn't apologized, he hasn't given you anything, just kind of says to me that he hasn't even shown you the respect you deserve in acknowledging anything. including your pain and your feelings.
And that maybe you can take comfort from (as ridiculous as it may sound!!) in letting you know you did the right thing in ending it. Sure maybe he'll come up with something if he realizes what he's lost but that's going to be just as hollow as if he does/says nothing, right??!! You did the right thing whatever!!
And you don't really need his apologies, really, as long as you realize (which I think you are?) that he wasn't the person you thought he was, he couldn't be/isn't a person you need in your life and you can do a lot better than him. And really, when it comes right down to it/when you're seeing things a bit more clearly an apology from him is going to be pretty meaningless in the "bigger picture".
So just concentrate on you and gradually moving past this, there is so much more out there. And good on you for ending it!!!
It might be really painful right now but just remember you've thrown yourself a life raft by getting out of the situation. If you'd stayed and put up with/lived with..........it could be so much worse!! Well done!!!
Alison

[healingme4me]

Originally Posted by Cjj6

. I can't stop thinking what if he gets medication for his bi polar will everything change and be better?

I love him, but he's killing me emotionally.

He kept saying last night that he's going to ruin my life and will do anything to make me regret wasting his time ..yet it feels like I wasted mine!!


I feel like I will never trust another person again, ever.

Sorry to read you are in pain.
What he said, it's horrible!!!! No wonder you fear trusting ever again!

That's not his bipolar. That's just threatening.

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[Cjj6]

Thank you guys. Makes me feel a lot better reading this..knowing that I did the right thing. Although a part of me will still always want to run back I know that would be the worst thing I could ever do.
He owes me money and told me I could come get it but I don't want to talk or see him. So I guess I lost that!! Which sucks. I'm done with the games and being played like an idiot. I deserve someone who will treat not only me right but also my son. I just have a fear I will never find anyone that will

[Maria116]

Originally Posted by Cjj6

He owes me money and told me I could come get it but I don't want to talk or see him. So I guess I lost that!!

I'd call that a lost cause. I have a friend who's dealing with the same thing. He promised to pay her back. As a result, she has met with him a few more times, slept with him of course, never got her money back, and in the end gave up and asked him never to contact her again.

[Cjj6]

Yeah I'm going to try but if he's just going to start up with his rude messages then it's not even worth it. Lesson learned.