[June55]

Sometimes everything seems and feels so right. Other times everything feels wrong. I don't know.

We are 19 years apart. I don't know if my parents would approve. Of course I'm an adult, so really it shouldn't matter. He doesn't want to get married. We please each other without having intercourse. We bring out the best in each other. Sometimes I wonder, if this is all there is.

I grew up believing marriage and then sex. But if you connect with someone and they don't want to get married, but you feel so free with them? Is that so wrong?

And now, I feel like I made a mistake ever becoming friends and having a relationship with this person. And what happens if I end things? If I end it this time, its over, and no more texting etc.

And yet, I feel so right when I am with him. I feel so ok. Like things are good. Like I'm good. Things I don't believe when I'm on my own. Why would I want to end things when he opens the world for me? I never thought I'd feel the way I do when I'm with him.

I'm so confused. Is this right or wrong? Is it meant to be? Maybe it is time to live and move on. Was I a fool?

I am just confused. That's all.

I over-analyze things and he lives in the moment.

[kaliope]

if you are happy and he brings out the best in you, what is so bad about it? the only thing that sounds to be holding you up is marriage. can you get over the idea of not being married? that is what you have to look at it seems. can you be truly happy without being married? if not, then it is time to move on. if you can let go of the idea of being married then by all means you can move forward in the relationship. think hard on this. take care,

[ChipperMonkey]

I think you should try to live more in the moment like he does. Take things one day at a time. I'm much like you in that I over-analyze, and the guy I'm seeing is much like him in that he lives in the moment. I think he really balances me out.

I wouldn't be so quick to dismiss him because he doesn't want to get married. There are plenty of people out there who have wonderful, fulfilling relationships and they never get married. Also, marriage is no guarantee of anything.

As for the age thing, try and not worry about what your parents might think. I know this can be hard, but you are an adult and you need to live for you, and not for anyone else.

[hvert]

If you are having doubts, it's really important to take a step back and examine them. Don't just dismiss them by telling yourself that you are overthinking things. Trust your instincts.

Why is marriage off the table? When you say that there will be no more texting if you end things, does that mean that you won't text him or that he told you that he won't text you?

You mention feeling like things are good and you are good when you are with him, and that you don't feel that way when you are on your own. I'm not saying your boyfriend is like this, but there are men who will take advantage of younger women who have self-esteem issues. A 19 year age difference is a big one. I used to date men who were much older than me. In hindsight, I wish I had more thoroughly examined my attraction to older men and dated people closer to my own age.

I hope whatever you decide to do works out for you!