Blocked and Alienated with NO ANSWERS!!

So I have been on a chat program called Paltalk for a while now. I have had some heartbreak before by being on there where a guy has blocked me, but I gave him a reason. Now I didn't do anything and I am really paranoid. Is my username out there somewhere? Is there information about me somewhere on the internet that I don't know about?

I googled my handle and didn't come up with much, just some stuff about alcoholism and depression but I don't think he would judge me on that, but you never know. I am so paranoid right now because I did absolutely nothing to this person and he blocked me and had me bounced from the chatroom we met in. I went in there tonight and he was in there, obviously ranting, (probably about me), but I didn't hear much and then I was bounced. I really wish I knew what I did. I really cared about this person, and thoroughly enjoyed our conversations.

What would make him do that? What did I do that was SO bad? I will never know and its eating me up.

The worst part is now I feel more alone than ever.

Hello, PlatinumHeart. You have stated you did nothing to merit this person's behavior. That being the case, why are you beating yourself up about his problem?

I guess its a desire to be liked and accepted. He left me a message saying he wanted nothing to do with me and it would be best if I got on with my life and left him alone. I never had anyone tell me something like that with no reason attached to it.

I'm just feeling hurt that's all. And rejected once again.

I am sorry this happened.

I'm sorry, that really stinks Sometimes it's not us, it's them-- or it's the chemistry between us, which isn't really anyone's fault.

A friend of mine said something interesting the other day, that he tried to live 'without assigning intentions to other people.' I hope you feel better and meet someone who is in a position to be there for you the way you want.

It's no problem really, I just have to accept it. I find myself thinking about it often, and I have to just stop that. It was totally out of my control. I just really wish I knew what I did.

That's a great way of looking at things, your friend is very wise . I am just playing it over and over in my head scrambling to understand what happened. The way he is acting its as if I did something terrible to him. But yes, I will be more weary of the next person I talk to and try not to reveal too much too soon.