[Bumblebuzz12]

For a long time now I've been feeling like I have no love in my life. Sometimes I wonder if I love my parents and I honestly don't know. I've always been taught to love my parents and I always tell them I love them before bed, school, or before they go to work. I'm not quite sure if I actually love them. A lot of times I catch myself saying "I hate you" or cursing them under my breath.
I've had a strong desire to love and to be loved. I daydream about about having perfect relationships (with family, friends, and boys).
I hold a lot of my feelings inside and sometimes I come close to spilling my guts to my friends and family, but stop myself because I'm afraid. I don't want to be judged. I don't feel connected to anyone anymore.
I don't date or hang out with my friends like I use to. I'm afraid to date and I will never ever get married. Holding my feelings in is becoming unbearably hard. I don't know how i feel anymore. I just feel lost does anybody have any tip on helping find a path or has anyone experienced this.

[BobbyDavis]

I used to feel the same way when I was young and as somebody with disabilities I did my best to hide them from most people I knew with the exception of my best friend because a part of me was afraid of being bullied and ridiculed for having them like I was by my Dad but I have come to find the key to true happiness is learning how to love yourself and feel comfortable in your own skin and not caring about the way other people see you unless they are important to you. You sound like you are young so you have your whole future ahead of you to work this out but you need to have more confidence in yourself and stop surrounding yourself with negative thoughts.

Love will come.

[IrisBloom]

If you can say you love them, then you do. It's normal to have less than lovely thoughts about someone you love. I live with my elderly dad, and I love him and don't want any thing bad to happen to him. But...he has treated me like crap my whole life and sometimes I really do feel like I hate him. I don't like him as a person.

You will find romantic love and will know when it happens. Just be patient and it will happen when you least expect it.

[deafdogsdontbark]

Have you ever heard of the expression "fake it till you make it"? I believe we can nudge our thoughts by acting the way we want to feel. So, act like you are loved, act like you love your parents. Act like you are of value and others are of value. Give it a try for a week. See where it takes you.

Bruce