[shaines]

Hi, am 26. Am an only child. I have no friends but have a nice job. I have been intwo failed relationships. My first lasted five years from when I was 18 till I was 23. He moved to another country and married someone else. My second left me because he thought i was still in love with tne first. This broke me completely because I was trying to start a new life with him but he just didnt give me a chance. Since the break up ive been constantly depressed, very sad, always crying and am tired of this life. I spend days in my bed crying. Nothing interests me anymore. I just hate everything and everyone. I even hate my job, the only thing that keeps me busy. I just want to sleep and never wake up. No one cares about me. I can take a week without receiving a single phone call. Am tired of this life and I feel so much pain in my heart. Am so depressed. I hardly eat and I have lost so much wait.
Wish I could leave this country and start a new life elsewhere.

[kaliope]

hi shaines
it does sound like you are suffering from depression and need some new prospective on life. are you able to see a therapist to help you sort through your feelings? welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

[Rose76]

You need to find some friends. I'm guessing that, without a boyfriend, you are basically alone most of the time. That's putting all your eggs in one basket. You have depended on these guys for all your emotional satisfaction. Branch out to other people. Get involved in something where you do things with others. It will change how you feel.

[curley]

Hi Shaines, I tend to agree with a previous posting that a therapist may be a good idea. I think he or she could help you work through many of your thoughts and feelings.
It is sad but it seems like you rely on others for your happiness. You are the only one that make yourself happy.
Please try to get active with other people. Maybe take an art class or dance class something that interests you, so you can get out of the house, stay busy and meet people!