[Yismymindblank12]

Please explain this to me. I'm a **** up. I'm told not to worry. I'm not worried I'm pissed I **** it up all the time. So what am I doing wrong. I told someone I like them and they don't ****ing get it. I show them I like them I'm blunt and they don't understand. Then they get a bf and are confused and didn't know I liked them what the **** am I doing wrong. I was blunt eddy straight to the point I knew the person well and they can just **** off, unless I like them as a potential friend.

What am I missing, I literally starve myself because I get this happening to me and people don't ****ing get me. I'm going to die soon from my choices from starving myself i have control over my body. I lost a waist size of my heaviest 40 to now below a 28. I'm still losing weight. I hate myself because im passed up. And no one knows I'm dying slowly. I have lots of issues I give compliments when needed, im not clingy, im bold and don't care about drama, but people leave me alone. Idk y. I'm aggressive, but confident. I'm not arrogant but assertive. I'm both a good guy and bad boy. I'm sensitive and heartless to myself and others. I'm honest from this post and whatever I say gets passed up all the time. For since I can't remember, I won't have a gf because I'm too good apparently bull ****ing ****. Not sorry get your **** together and don't **** with my emotions. I won't act immature you just don't hear from me or I can tell you how ****** you are despite me liking your flaws. You made a choice I am happy you made one but warn me before leading me on.
Maybe my body image wouldn't be so **** and I'm heading for a weight of 80lbs and dying because I'm not good as the next dude over you. Lastly for this for what I said I'm a selfish asshole whose self entitled not to feel so ****ing ****** by others opinions and actions and decisions. Girls don't want me and they don't even know me get the **** out and stay away. I look at porn and magazines when I'm depressed as a form of self harm to show what I can't achieve of what males have and brag about amongst my guy friends.
**** it and this ****.

I'm sorry that you are struggling. I hate that you are starving yourself to impress others. I am sure you are a wonderful human being just the way you are. Be yourself, don't be what others want you to be. You will never find hapiness living for others. ((hugs))

I don't know what to say...

Please hang in there Y...you don't know what the future holds.

[Yismymindblank12]

Yeah. It's like two different girls during very difficult times in my life shown me. Never ever ever ever ever. Talk to anyone through friends or online. I've got tired being completely honest and open then get misunderstood finding out the person wasn't so nice or confused.
This has been an insecurity since as long as I can remember dating skills and communication is great but the other person seems to be always some weird ****ed up situation. I am seeing my therapist about this a new one, but I've hated my looks because of it so much for so frequently happening and all my relationships were through my shy efforts not me meeting someone and knowing them.
I do a fine job making effort but the rejection has relapsed on my anorexia habits. My depression is this issue, the loneliness is too much. I don't even want a gf just more friends girls make my body dysmorphia worse. When people say I look good it's hard for me to accept it I try to but I gets really hard to convince myself they're right. Its equivalent to explaining to a girl with anorexia she isn't fat when it comes to me.