Alone without lonely?

I'm incredibly lonely, but I don't want to make any more friends. (If you think that's a really unhealthy thing to say and I should just go talk to someone, read the rest of the page. If not, you can skip to the bottom paragraph.)
For one thing, I'm not sure it would help. I have one or two very close friends right now, but I still feel lonely while spending time with them. I suppose an intimate relationship might help at some point, but I seriously doubt I'm ready for one. I have a LOT of crazy going on inside my head... or, better said, I'm not crazy, but there are a lot of things it's significantly more difficult for me to do, and connecting with others is one of them. Which brings me to my second point; I don't think I have it in me to deal with a lot of human interaction right now. I'm only nineteen, and I'm figuring out a lot of things (just got a second job, saving up for school, trying to move out... eventually...) and so even as it is I'm having to be real careful to exercise and use my coping skills and keep up on my mental and physical health to avoid another episode.
Anyway, what I'm trying to say is I'd rather not use time/energy I don't have to find friends who won't help, but I do need to handle the loneliness. I'm hoping someone has some tips, because most of the stuff I've found so far is about socialization, and that's really not the issue. Thanks

Hi in retrograde

Thank you for your first post here on Psychcentral.

I am glad that you have signed up to this online community.

This is a great place to receive online support.

I am sorry to hear that you feel incredibly lonely.

I have looked at your last paragraph and you have stated and the "socialisation" reference.

Yes, I believe that we are all unique.

So I guess in terms of the lonely part, we can feel lonely if we don't have constructive meaningful things to do with our lives (apart from friendship) that add meaning.

So other than friendship.

I wonder what sort of activities you could use?

What sorts of things might you enjoy doing?

Charity work?

Going for long walks?

Visiting the beaches (weather and location dependent )

Writing Blogs

Listening to your favourite music?

And so on and so forth.

Welcome!!!I remember being 19 and all i wanted to do was socialize, you're probably better off with a few friends as i spent my time in the pub drinking in college, stupid idea, by my 3rd year i cracked down,on the books i mean. if you do better in school if thats what you're going to do, or work, its better if you get a good nights sleep every night and don't follow in my footsteps. if you feel lonely with your friends now, don't worry, you can always meet others, join a group of people with like interests if possible, schedule your time for as long as you can take with people.i remember in grammer school i felt lonely even when i was with a group of people or just even one person. it must just be our pshysical makeup?good luck!!

I'm glad you are working and saving up for school. How soon do you expect that you will be able to start school? Do you currently live with your parents? Why are you planning on moving out of where you live now?

For now, I think you are right in figuring that you have enough to do focusing on concentrating on work and school.