[Whatismylife]

i have been depressed for so long that it is my personality. I have felt like i had social anxiety, bdd, and ocd. I dont have any real relayionships. My biggest problem is i have a hard time connecting with people. It takes me a while to get to know people. I frel lole ive never been loved or eben liked. Im not close to my family, ive lost touch with my frsternity. One of my roommates told me I made him sad and he could not live with me anymore. I do a good job of hiding all of this. But you can feel the repression in my voice. I just am losing sight and i feel like there is no hope but im not suicidal about it. I just want to be outgoing and everything everyone else.

[Raynedaze1]

Honey, I dearly hope that you get better, but as for now, I think you just need some good advice and someone that you can trust to talk to. It's okay to feel sad sometimes, because that is a natural human emotion, but if you are dealing with a long term depression here, then I really think you should talk to someone. Maybe a counselor, or a therapist, or maybe even a psychologist. These people are trained to help others out. Making friends can be hard, Lord knows I've tried several times. But before you make some friends, I really do think that you need to help make yourself happy. Do you have at least one friend? If so, then put forth a lot of effort into that relationship. I'm sending positive vibes your way, my friend.

[PeachCream22]

Hi, and first of all welcome to Psychcentral

You sound like you really want a good relationship with someone who accepts you for who you are. Don't we all? It's okay to take your time to get to know people and connect with them. You don't have to be outgoing like "everyone else", or how everyone else seems to be outgoing (because not everyone is) to establish a good relationship. There are people here who are in the same boat as you, and there will be people who understand you and vice versa.

[avlady]

i understand you too. i am a mother and housewife and rarely go out to have fun, those days are over as i would usually end up drinking to have a good time but i dont want to deal with hangovers. its been years since ive got drunk to have a good time and i lost alot of friends because my friends all drank i i guess i just ruin the party by not drinking. being lonely can get people depressed, maybe you can see a doc and therapist, or get a job to make friends with. do you attend school? it takes awhile to get familiar with people, but after they see or talk to them they slowly become our friends or even just an acquaintance could become a friend. good luck