[cyborg_hearted]

I joined this Forum a few months ago and I met really nice and lovely people here since then, but nevertheless I feel kind of disconnected, maybe because there are so many members.. this disconnected feeling is one of my everyday-issues...I don´t make friends that easy and I am nearly never the initiative one beginning a conversation..maybe because I still think I am not the one others want to befriend with..I think there could be aspects on my personality that could seem frightening.or strange.(?)don`t know how it seems from outside, from another perspective..when I had chosen my name "cyborg_hearted", afterwards I thought: "oh that maybe could sound like I am sort of a monster,...I am everything but a monster!!" I could not change it afterwards so I thought ..okay,then this is my name here!....I chose that name because I know of my heart and it´s feelings but I also had to get to know this "defence -programming" that´s got this feelings under control.especially when I see myself emotionally in danger...it sometimes makes me seem acting kind of cool...unemotional..that´s why this name
...maybe I am strange, my life has made me become strange or not "normal"....my way of thinking is not usual..so that´s often the reason for me standing seperated, feeling seperated.. I need a long time, for example at work, to become feeling being a part of my workmates, need a long time to trust others, show them who I am and feeling accepted for who I am.
but I don´t want no longer feel this disconnection...so what can I do, especially here inside this community to find contacts?
any ideas?
thank you for reading
yours
cybheart

[elevatedsoul]

keep doing what you have been doing, you're on the right path!
remember there is no such as "normal" and everyone is different, unique

you'll make friends here if you continue reaching out

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

I am nearly never the initiative one beginning a conversation..maybe because I still think I am not the one others want to befriend with

I am a similar way, I think.

I think there could be aspects on my personality that could seem frightening.or strange.

Maybe, but don't we all have that strange side to us that could put certain people off? Isn't it worth that risk, to just be you and have some people truly accept you for who you are?

when I had chosen my name "cyborg_hearted", afterwards I thought: "oh that maybe could sound like I am sort of a monster,

xD Ne, never crossed my mind, and I doubt it crossed anybody else's mind. I, for one, like your name(s). You? A monster? Pfft... unlikely!

I am everything but a monster!!

Exactly. Wait, everything? You're a ninja?! And a spacewoman, and a cat, and a ... TV... and a mousemat? AMG, my mind is blown. xD I know what you mean, though. I actaully have a very similar thought process, in that I judge myself and my actions so, so much that it drives me crazy. >.<

...maybe I am strange, my life has made me become strange or not "normal"....my way of thinking is not usual..so that´s often the reason for me standing seperated, feeling seperated.

Ditto that!

need a long time to trust others, show them who I am and feeling accepted for who I am.

That, too! It's so important to feel accepted, I think, but I think the real issue may be: do you accept yourself?

but I don´t want no longer feel this disconnection...so what can I do, especially here inside this community to find contacts?

I would say continue reading posts, and replying here and there, until you bump across awesome people with whom you wanna chat... you know, like my incredibly awesome self. *poses* Lol

[arundelle]

I just started talking. I don't expect to make friends. There are social groups, too. Maybe it's easier to connect if you join one of them, because there are fewer people?

[cyborg_hearted]

Thank yous
@arundelle

There are social groups, too. Maybe it's easier to connect if you join one of them, because there are fewer people?

the groups I have found and joined-it seems to be not much happening in there..
@Zwangsstörung

Maybe, but don't we all have that strange side to us that could put certain people off? Isn't it worth that risk, to just be you and have some people truly accept you for who you are?

I prefer these few people...

Exactly. Wait, everything? You're a ninja?! And a spacewoman, and a cat, and a ... TV... and a mousemat? AMG, my mind is blown.

you´re teasing me :P

I actaully have a very similar thought process, in that I judge myself and my actions so, so much that it drives me crazy

please don´t

do you accept yourself?

I am a lucky beginner

until you bump across awesome people with whom you wanna chat... you know, like my incredibly awesome self. *poses* Lo

[Alone & confused]

With so many members, and so many threads, it's easy to get "lost in the crowd",but just hang in there! The more you post, the more we'll get to know you. You'll make connections before too long. It's hard to reach out to EVERYONE on a one-on-one basis here, but it IS possible to find someone you can really relate to and make a closer connection to. And remember that when you feel alone or discounted, you're not alone in feeling that way either. Many of us feel that way too. I don't even feel as though I fit into my OWN life! So I know what you're going through.

[cyborg_hearted]

it´s relieving to know that I am not the only one feeling this way. cool that you´re still here though

[Astridetal]

I can relate to feeling disconnected from toher people here sometimes. It's hard when the forum has so many members and threads. You almost need to be here all the time to get a real connection. Even so, it is good tha tyou've met some nic epeople here already.