[Yismymindblank12]

I don't have friends I can see, people expect me to go and see them, but I can't living here I'm always having not enough money some days and I'll be working for no end goal other than just having it taken away or I'm never having any means of transportation. People drop me all the time, now since 2 years now I've been not talking to people, people don't ask me how I'm doing, people don't keep up with me like others do for them people don't do ****.

It's like I'm always talking to a wall when I do put a lot initiative they are always unresponsive so I stopped and no surprise when I did a long while ago they didn't bother to know what's going on either. People are always busy life is too short to push everyone away, but it's that I have no choice in this matter anyways no matter I can make a 100 possible friends, but I may not even get one out of it even if I do I usually stop talking to them period.

On my worst days like today, I'd rather do drugs or not eat for a long time to control my situation. I don't feel anyone cares and they don't show it and it's like I'm just another person to ignore.

I did all I could and it's never working and people don't care.

I wouldn't be making this up if it wasn't real. Don't say it's perceived or anything.

**** I have a harder time being friends with anyone period. You just dont' know.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Sometimes I think exactly like you - people don't care, or maybe they just don't care about me. I think the truth is - we are stuck in a world of people that only understand things if they have personally been affected by it and if they haven't they don't care to try to understand - and since you and I both have something referred to as "mental illness" - until those people are touched by it (and the exact same kind I might add) they will avoid as much contact as possible. Not out of lack of care, but out of fear. Sometimes the sense of fear trumps that of love.

[Yismymindblank12]

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

Sometimes I think exactly like you - people don't care, or maybe they just don't care about me. I think the truth is - we are stuck in a world of people that only understand things if they have personally been affected by it and if they haven't they don't care to try to understand - and since you and I both have something referred to as "mental illness" - until those people are touched by it (and the exact same kind I might add) they will avoid as much contact as possible. Not out of lack of care, but out of fear. Sometimes the sense of fear trumps that of love.

Even in mental illness people with some people who suffer psychosis severely or experience hallucinations and other disorders most people don't have they get singled out within that community of people suffering with them too. Sad though this is rampant everywhere.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Yismymindblank12

Even in mental illness people with some people who suffer psychosis severely or experience hallucinations and other disorders most people don't have they get singled out within that community of people suffering with them too. Sad though this is rampant everywhere.

Exactly - and that's how the entire world works.

[FireIsland123]

Nothing hurts more than being abandoned. Looking back, I think what I regret is not wishing and hoping they would call and instead, search out new friends and interests. Wishing you peace and happiness.

[cinnamonstick]

Hey, you have people that care about you here! Really! The people you have dealt with are not the right people for you. I agree with FireIsland123. I have some ideas is if you are interested.