AFRAID TO BE ALONE, help me.

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For a while now I’ve suspected that this girl I still have feelings for has been sexually active. Well, I just found out that I was right. In fact, she told me that I once called her while she was in the middle of having sex. She’s 15 and her boyfriend is 18. As I’ve said before, she’s had drug problems and believes she’s a vampire. I know he’s taking advantage of her, that ******. I hate him for what he’s doing. And now, they’re both scared that she’ll get pregnant because of a “mistake”. I was calm while I found this stuff out, but once I left her house I went straight to the house of the first friend I could find, he wasn’t there. I went to the houses of all my friends in the area, none were home. I’m afraid to be alone right now. I love this girl with all my heart (no one can tell me different) and I can’t stand knowing that she’s sexually active and is probably being taken advantage of. She’s so young and vulnerable and all I want to do is hold her and protect her from all the stupid ****** up ****** that’s going to steal her innocence away.

She says that her boyfriend knows about her psi-vampirism better than she does, and that’s why she feels so close to him. I know that he doesn’t believe it anymore than I do, and that he’s just going along with it. Which is something I never did, it’s immoral.

I confess that I did not read your entire previous thread. It was LONG! But what does stand out is that this girl is 15 and you are 20. I do understand that you care deeply for her, and you are concerned for her well, being, your interest in her sounds a bit ....., sorry....but, obsessive.

I think, if you have not done so already, it's time to check in with a therapist about this issue. It just not a healthy situation for YOU. This young lady is definately getting herself into some very unhealthy situations, but she is also not likely to listen to anyone until she is either 1) emotionally ready to listen 2) in legal trouble and is forced to do so

I'm worried about YOU right now. I think you need to talk to someone about this issue. Your interest in her is obviously not platonic, and if you pursue a romantic relationship - you go to PRISON. Try saying that word out loud a few times.

Please take care.

Emmy


"Language is a Trojan horse by which the universe gets into the mind. ." -- Hugh Kenner

One more thing.....you didn't explain why you are afraid to be alone. I should have asked that earlier before I smacked you around. ;-)

Keep posting, we'll help you through this.

Emmy

"Language is a Trojan horse by which the universe gets into the mind. ." -- Hugh Kenner

Fifteen year olds that are "sexually active" are just sluts, why would you (a 20 year old) or anyone else want to have anything to do with her? She is trouble with a capital "T" and obviously knows how to push your buttons. Get away and stay away from her, she is just wallowing in the barnyard and will continue to do so.
What are you doing for yourself" school, job other frirends, and why on earth do you run from her house to all your "friernds" to drag them into the nonsense. You all have better things to do. If you're afraid of being alone at 20, get use to it because you'll find yourself alone through both the best tijmes and the worst times of your life. Get some backbone and do something good for youself whenever you're alone.

It's alright, Macallen. I believe you misinterpreted me when I said "afraid to be alone" I have wonderful friends and I have no fear of them leaving. I was just really upset at the time, and didn't want to be left alone at that moment. But the feeling passed quickly and then I kicked it into high gear and learned as much as I could as fast as I could. She knew some of her options, but didn't seem to be pro-active. Mistakes do happen, but only a fool would think one like pregnancy would simply go away

I think my initial reaction was out of disbelief from what I had learned, coupled with anger. This turned into frustration when her outlook on this whole "mistake" was "Sh#t happens". she refused the morning after pill and she was basically waiting out the clock for her period, which I'm happy to say she had the other day.

My father had a seminar on suicide and current theories regarding warning signs and treatment. I asked him to bring home as much literature as he could so that I might learn more. One positive outlook on all of this mess is that I have expanded my knowledge in areas I knew little about before.

I think the hardest thing in the world is to have to stand by and watch someone you really care about destroy themselves with destructive choices. What makes us feel so bad is the utter helplessness we feel.

Oh how nice it would be to have a magic wand and have everything turn out just the way we want it to turn out. Unfortunately, human nature being what it is, people sometimes dive head long into what they consider to be "exciting times" with no thought for the aftermath.

You are a courageous young man, with a strong loving heart. It takes great strength to stand by and let someone do the wrong thing and hope they will come to their senses some day. There is this very interesting film called "The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" and it truly exposes the folly of our hearts when we are in love. Go see it.

Good luck to you, and just be glad that you are not the one with all the problems.

Choices, it's all about choices.