What a let down. Been emling 2 1/2 years and finally hooked up;-(

Hi Christina,
This will be more of a challenge. We do have more than one home.
I don't really know how much time he expects to spend with me.
He likes to be alone. He prefers the beach to the desert in CA.
I was thinking about finishing remodeling the cabin and getting
Storage Depot ( our storage business ) going again with new customers. I've kinda put my other needs on the back burner for now. It will take me awhile to hook up now that it has failed.

Sometimes guys need to get over some nerves and get some feedback from a patient partner.

I would be very curious on his view of the hookup. You're really thinking that much less of him after 2.5 years because in his 50s he needs someone to work with him in the sack?

I like you story and your posts. I just am not sure I'd complain so much about a lover after the first meeting. People often grow as part of a relationship and are far from perfect on the first hookup.

Good luck,

moogs

Oh, he'd say I was heavier than he thought I'd be. 2 yrs ago I was a lot thinner. The Meds made me crave sugar and carbs and lower my metabolism. I have a bigger tummy than I ever had.
I think this as I was wearing a very form fitting dress with no sleeves. He called it a
Moo- moo.
I like to kiss. He doesn't. Not with me anyway. So he'd say she kisses too much maybe.
I like to run my hands the length of a man's back and linger there. He had a shaved back, something I've never come across. And about 2 week stubble. Yikes. He may say I was too particular.

I asked him if he liked big boobs. Mine are even bigger since the weight gain. He didn't seem to excited. He said either way was fine.

So he is what he is. I know when I first posted I was extremely disapointed.
It's part of my bipolar problem to expect great things and then get upset if it doesn't happen. I'm a little Type A personality too.

Thanks for reading. I'm trying to learn from each person's post.

He insulted your dress? What a tool!!

I hope you didn't see his ed as an affront to your sensuality

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Thank you Healing.
Yes. I think it was a sneaky way to insult my figure.
I'm almost 6' tall so even when a little heavy I can carry it easier than a short girl.
During play time I like to wrap my legs around a man's thigh.
His was all scratchy. More shaving and he was kinda short. So we had trouble "matching up"

Moo moo? What an idiot

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Love you Devine & Healing.
I like that expression Tool!

I won't do it. But I feel like emling him. I miss that part of the relationship
But even if I did, he might just eml back to be polite.
I'm not going to let myself get in this long loop again.
How do I control this urge?

Distract yourself when the urge strikes. Emailing for years becomes routine and ritualistic. Just remember the negative feelings you took away from the experience

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Thank you healing. It's a super good way to view the situation.