I'm scared.'

I'm so scared dude. My emotions always kick my ***, when someone I crush on is making things serious with me, because I feel a little I'm not good enough, a little excited and happy she likes me a lot back, and feeling overwhelmed scared of things going wrong and right together.

What are you not good enough for ? We have your good and bad sides, but there is someone who wants to be serious with you, and this definitely means that you appear to be good enough for that person.
Just take the progress of that relationship slowly and easy, so your emotions of not being good enough can fade.
You should focus on the feelings of being excited, because it is a very exciting feeling!

Don't let past experiences hold you back.

No it's platonic not serious. I didn't have feelings for her just more love ideas. I'm not going to progress. I'd waste both our times.
She blown me off like everyone else.
I don't like the seriousness of it before. It's overwhelming.

I always feel not good enough mainly on my looks only. I'm very hard on perfection. I really don't know what to do. I don't know how it feels when someone actually likes me, I find it easier to feel more complied they're ****ing with me. Btw I'm very certain she didnt like me, I was just with her today at her place. It wasn't fun more quiet and anxious. She was too focused on something else and she more pushed me away. I was instantly turned off and done I don't care what she offers.