I accidentally hurt my cousin

Today I was at the shops with family and apparently it was my responsibility to watch over the 2year old cousin. My mother was calling me brain dead because I wasn't watching and she ran off lucky my cousin's mother was there and told my mother it wasn't my responsibility. Then Daniela saw a car that the person pushes forward paid like an Euro to put Leonor in was pushing her around in the car she loved it. Then it was my turn to push her around and then we walked into the shop. I took my eyes off of her for a moment and I it was too late to stop her from falling over the handle bars. She started screaming as she fell on her finger it was literally red and swollen for an hour. I felt so horrible and Daniela was saying "why did you take your eye off of her". I literally cried because I was like "imagine if I did that to my child?". My niece comforted me but it does make feel like as severely adhd woman it would literally be a health hazard for me to have a baby. Why can't people with severe mental illness have like free or cheaper contraception. Can you imagine how many children would born with a chance and not addicted to methamphetamine. Yeah, sure there free condoms but what about us woman who can't use latex or don't trust the man to put it on, what do we do fork out thousands of dollars to get sterilized its stupid. It's honestly stupid people like me should NEVER be parents.

Could also just not have sex, that works too.

This is just like your previous post about you being wary of having your own kid. Again, there's many forms of BC that aren't condoms or even pills. They have implants now that can last up to 5 years. Don't be so hard on yourself over the lil one. My parents could tell me book load of times I've gotten hurt when someone just glanced the other way. And look at me now. I'm normal!! Lmao yea right. Really though, don't beat yourself up.

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Don't call yourself stupid but you aren't obligated to have children. Talk to your doctor about it

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Something like an implant or IUD would be a really good option for you because they can last up to 5 years and you wouldn't have to remember to take it like a pill. I think it's good that you recognize that you're not in a position to have children (at least at this point in your life). I strongly believe that people shouldn't have children if/when they aren't prepared-- not everyone is cut out to be a parent. It's a tough job!!

Stop being so hard on yourself. Noone grows up having no bruises. It's part of life. No one is perfect. No mom is perfect, no babysitter is perfect. This kind of stuff happens. If your parents were bad, it does not mean you would make a bad parent. Everyone is different. You are not them.