[Shadix]

This is basically what I am and even though I try really hard to cover it up, the more I get to know people the more it naturally shows. I don't think most people value or respect someone with these qualities, so I am finding myself wondering if most of my friendships are just meaningless. I have nothing but resentment for people who look down on me, and I feel like most people I hang out with eventually make it clear that they look down on me. So what's the point in connecting with other people at all?

[Michelea]

Sounds like you are projecting how you feel about yourself into assumptions of how others see you.

You write amazingly well for someone, who by your words, is cognitively slow. Some of our most beloved actors say they are very socially awkward in real life (along with almost everyone else on this planet at some point in their life, including me). Physical coordination ranges from the naturally athletic to those of use who could trip on a speck of dust...we balance each other out.

Work on your self esteem please...and don't base how you feel about yourself only by what you assume someone else feels about you. Just be you.

[divine1966]

Have you ever been tested? Do full psych evaluation with a psychologist. See a psychiatrist etc get to the bottom of it

You have college degree so it's unlikely you are cognitively impaired ( let's not call people including yourself "slow"). You can improve you social skills in therapy ( which you refuse to try). You regularly attend gym so I doubt you are that uncoordinated. I doubt you are clumsier than me and my husband. We can't even walk around our own house not bumping on things.

Who looks down on you and what evidence of that do you have?

[Shadix]

Originally Posted by divine1966

Have you ever been tested? Do full psych evaluation with a psychologist. See a psychiatrist etc get to the bottom of it

You have college degree so it's unlikely you are cognitively impaired ( let's not call people including yourself "slow"). You can improve you social skills in therapy ( which you refuse to try). You regularly attend gym so I doubt you are that uncoordinated. I doubt you are clumsier than me and my husband. We can't even walk around our own house not bumping on things.

Who looks down on you and what evidence of that do you have?

My friends from work for example clearly have no respect for me. They keep me around out of the kindness of their hearts, but my presence doesn't actually matter to them. Because of this they are very quick to show disapproval for anything I say, even the most innocent things. Others whom they value more, they will cut them a lot more slack. People will say much more offensive things and they will let it slide. I keep making the mistake of thinking oh if I am more careful not to say anything offensive or embarrassing they will not get upset with me, but the fact is it isn't about what I say or do, it is about the fact that they do not value me at all. They think they are doing me a favor by hanging out with me. Obviously if you are doing someone a favor you expect more from them. Well **** that.

Funny, when I was younger I was insecure about my looks. Now I realize my looks are probably my main strong point. I actually notice girls often seem to be attracted to me when they see me and don't know me. But then after they get to know me they lose all interest.

[divine1966]

Are you addressing it with mental health professional? We don't see or hear you so we cant tell what's going on. On here you always ignore what people tell you and just repeat the same thing. If you are doing it in real life, people probably do get annoyed. Please talk to a professional about all of this