[KelseyBubblesXD]

Hi everyone
Im new here so please go easy

My names kelsey and im 24 with 2 little girls.
Long story short - i suffer from anxiety PTSD BPD and depression the worst of which ive been finally dealing with for the past 5 years tho ive been a fully suffering for about 13 years. The last 4ish years ive been on my meds and ive been with my partner for 5 years.
Were due to be married June 2017, weve not had the easiest relationship but weve made it through. Tho recently a female friend of mine has came back into my life shes a child hood friend and i love having her back in my life so much that shes my bridesmaid. But over the past week or so my anxiety has been extreme, i was convinced my partner had feelings for her and was no longer intreasted in me...i was convinced of all the things that could happen or go wrong that they were going to happen and i began to keep questioning my partner. Today i felt so low with these thoughts that i was about to end everything. Now we have both sorted things out and its better and still deeply in love and due to be married but i am still petrified of these thoughts and how much more there going to show... i dont want to loose my family but these thoughts are the most powerful ive had in years they cloud everything and drain me so low. Im so scared my relationship will end because of them! Has anyone got any help at all?
Thanks

[Trippin2.0]

BPD is playing horrid tricks on you.


I've been through something similar although not walking down the aisle type.


I use fact checking and back it up with evidence.


I make a list of my fears, then I add what evidence supports them and last but not least evidence that disproves them.


I even have an evidence box of mementos to look through and help me. This way I don't need to fact check with bf, as it might get "old" for him.

[Skeezyks]

Hello KelseyBubblesXD: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

With regard to your concern, the only thing I could suggest is to find someone, presumably a counselor or therapist, with whom you can talk about these intrusive thoughts, over a period of time. (One session is not likely to suffice.) Figuring out why it is you are experiencing these repetitive thoughts (what's driving them) may help you to put them to rest. A skilled therapist will also be able to help you develop strategies for dealing with repetitive intrusive thoughts. There are, of course, self-help techniques one can employ in these kinds of situations, such a meditation as a way of relieving anxiety. However, they tend to be techniques that take time to become skilled at. And, from what you wrote, it sounds like you really need more immediate help.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!