[Smilie]

What do you keep secrete but wish you could tell the person closet to your heart?

[Wants2Fly]

Hi Smilie -- That is a good question.

First, I no longer engage in telling anyone secrets. I keep everything to myself that I wish to remain confidential. I have been burned in the past when something I considered confidential got out, so the only person I trust to keep my secrets is me.

I will disclose senstive information to friends, after I trust them, but never anything that they can use against me in a serious way if the relationship went bad. I do not disclose financial infomation, lend me car or my keys.

Second, in an intimate relationships, I do not reveal what I did in bed with past lovers. I reveal only what is needed for the other to understand what role past lovers played in my life. Of course, I would disclose STDS, a police record, an illness or anything that could affect the current important relationship.

I will be interested in reading what others write.

[Direction]

I'm wondering who is closest to my heart...not that I have many...just the opposite...not sure I have someone closest to my heart...

I keep a lot private...even from PC...

[Sabrina]

I seldom open up to anyone other than my husband. I trust him completely.

I do keep secret from him about how afraid I am of life without him but I also don't really want him to know that thoughts like this intrude!

[Rhapsody]

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What do you keep secrete but wish you could tell the person closet to your heart?

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Well now, if I told you that then it would not be a secret any more - would it?

hehehehehe... "Rhap" hehehe come on just one secret.......just one itty bitty secret...shhhhh we won't tell anyone else... hehehehe

I used to keep everything to myself but now I am a babbling fool. I say too much now. I've told too many people about my struggles since coming out of denial with myself about my illness. I wish I could turn back time and put it back in the bag. People are offering way too much advise that I don't want or that is so off base that it starts to pull me back into denial again. "It's just mind over matter. It's just demons possessing you.... It's just poor diet and lack of exercise..... it's just.... it's just.... now shape up and get a job."

I thought opening up and telling people would help me accept the diagnosis and be accountable to my lifestyle changes. Instead I find myself defending the dx to others and wresting in my head again about what the truth really is and suffering the self-loathing that natually accompanies such thinking.