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I just sent him a goodbye text. He didn't respond so I know I was right. Not feeling very great right now but that's to be expected. I can't cry as I have put my mascara on so am self harming. Don't worry, is safe self harm. It had to be done.

I just posted this and he got back to me. He still wants to be friends. It's not a great situation though. I still love him and it's never going to be reciprocated. It still hurts. I don't seem to be able to take people's advice here on it. I thought I was getting over it but when I thought he wasn't going to text back I felt sick and heartbroken again.

I'm sorry I'm weak in this way and for not taking people's advice but at the end of the day the only one suffering is me I suppose. If people are annoyed I don't blame them. It's just as well I am leaving as I'm clearly not listening to people here. Thanks for the support however.

I too don't think you should leave if you're obviously looking for support! That's why we're all here & you don't have to offer any in reply.
Take what you need for now.

A frightened horse will return to a burning barn & I feel you keep returning to this burning barn of a guy.
If you're self harming & getting psychotic you need to pull back on the things that r causing these issues & protect yourself.
You're worth so much more!
Focus on yourself here for awhile. Leave the extraneous stuff, like him, on the side. Be selfish & help yourself out.
You keep saying what this guy should do & what he needs in his life....you really don't know what he needs & he needs to figure those things out for himself.
Stay!
Do the work. Try! Everyday will be HARD! But we're here you you & will cheer you on!

In the last week I have spent a lot of money on this issue and my life direction in general. I've had tarot readings done, and astrology readings done. The tarot readings were interesting on this issue. One lady said he felt the same way as me but was scared of being hurt. She said we were soulmates. The second lady said that he felt the same but he didn't think I would give up drinking and I should forget about him. She didn't think I would give up the drinking either. I didn't drink for almost a whole year last year so I think it can be done. But she said I should not stay in touch with him. The other lady told me to ask him to go on holiday. Every reading I have had says I am going overseas. I am coming into money too. I don't know who to believe. I am going with my intuition. I have been told I need to burn bridges at this time. So I think I just have to forget him. It's not like everyone else hasn't been telling me that. I think I could give up the drink but she says I won't. But maybe neither of them are right. I think I have done too much of it and it is obsessional. If I don't come into money in the next month I know they are a waste of time.

I personally imho believe that this money would be better spent on few therapy sessions. These people took your money and told you whatever they wanted. Now you are even more confused and lost bunch of money. I once went to a psychic too (in times of desperation) and paid bunch of money to listen to bunch of horse ****. Again imho they prey on
vulnerable people. I did a lot of stupid stuff in time of desperation. Talk to your mental health provides if you can make get a part time job or something to occupy your time and provide some income. And maybe your doctor can refer you to few therapy sessions.

I have just e mailed two people who do mindfulness courses in my area. I told them the diagnosis though and I don't know if they'll want to do it because of that. It will cost but it will be worth it if it works. You are right. They could all be talking shite. I know there is a local place where psychics are and they ask for a few pounds. That would be better really when it comes to readings. I think if they are not asking for a lot of money they would be more likely to be real psychics. I am not saying the other ones were all wrong as they said things about the person I am that were true but they listen to what you are saying and work things out from that as well. It is a lot cheaper to go to one here.

I hope that the mindfulness course will happen as I could do with some sort of help and I am not getting any. I take medication but that doesn't sort out personal problems.

Thanks for your advice.

They tell everybody that they have trip coming up and coming to money. It's standard. They told you to go to a man whom you met once snd who doesn't want relationship with you and ask him to go on
vacation with you? That's ridiculous.

Yes try mindfulness course!

I've seen several mindfulness techniques & theories & practices on YouTube. That's free. You can watch them & start small things to practice everyday. Mindfulness can be done anytime, anywhere.
Do you believe psychics as a religion?
If a person says you're not going to stop drinking.....you going to believe this person under what premise?
Maybe I don't understand.

What are you looking for?? What changes are you willing to make? What do you want to manifest in your life?
These may be hard questions but stepping stones you'll need to use in this journey either now or later.