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I don't have much support. Nothing has had closure, my health, income divorce and now family. My brother said call anytime you want to talk. The other day I called he and my sister are a 5hr drive away. I have been taking care of our mother for the last 9 yrs. I'm unable to now I can't even care for myself very well. He has a lot of talent he is a machinist plays music at local bars and is also a fishing guide he has recorded Cd's put music video's on you tube and guided Sports editors from Milwaukee and Chicago. I was talking about my mom who really doesn't accept my Illness by blocking it out. He went off swearing and saying things like are you aware mom's health is declining were trying to figure out what to do now that you can't function why don't you get off that cocktail of meds and why do you think evryone is out to f you over and sent a email with the definition of parinoid and just put me down. I think his real problem is he may have to cut out his hobby time. On the phone during his tirade I told him ihad to go because I won't talk to him when your talking like this. He said I hung upon him, then I caught him in a lie wich he describes as a misunderstanding. So the talk now is putting me in a mental health clinic.

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Family sucks sometimes.

seesaw

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I don't know if you are real or a robot but I always seem to get a reply from u at least I'm glad u reply

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I am real. I didn't know what else to say.

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Whatever u say is always nice

Time to play some D. It's a sad epiphany when you realize that the love and respect that you have for your siblings aren't necessarily reciprocated. How have your brother and sister compensated (not necessarily paid, but compensated) you for your sacrifice in taking care of your mother while they lived their lives unencumbered, recording CDs and guiding sports editors from Milwaukee and Chicago? Now that your brother has to step up and shoulder some (or all) of your shared responsibility, he's acting like a brat. I would not allow myself to be stepped on at this juncture. Your brother's success has been, in part, made possible by your sacrifices. Now, hobby time is over.

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Hey Lefty that was my thoughts as well and when I talked to mt mom the other day she said her health is the same..I feel like crap I can't help my mom One more thing about him is our dad left me and him land with a trailer and a shed . It's woodland and farmland a 3 hr drive for me 3 for him I went over once a month to keep the place up except winter he goes over a week and goes fishing or hunting with his buddies and that's it.The worst part is the e-mail he sent the next day saying maybe if I got off the cocktail of meds I could do something. He is 4 yrs older than me when we were young he used wrestle me down to the ground put his knees on my shoulders and let his drool hang down out his mouth really slow and then suck it back up sometimes it all landed on my face. yeah he is selfish hooked on himself my sister B/A universty WI works for the fed in immigration law no never a hint of thankfulness I have no family support nothing I feel like going and living under bridge they wouldn't care