[TwilightDawn]

Erm... boyfriend loosely...

We... got into another argument tonight... I told him how the world looked through my eyes... I can't stop... thinking about everything I;ve done... everything I'm guilty of... and now... I'm losing him...

We're breaking up... the person I've loved most in my life...

And it's all my fault... telling him... I will never stop running, I've done things in the past I will never accept as a human being... my world, my world of fears and depression... how it is through my eyes...

....now he's leaving me... I'm crying now... God, why does it hurt.......?

Help, is there any help left....?

[meander]

((((Asuyuka))))

That doesn't sound good at all, I'm so sorry that you feel so down. It's understandable why it hurts so much since this guy obviously means the world to you. If it's not too late, maybe try to express to him what he means to you?

Also, if this is the first time he's heard about your depression and the world as you see it, it might take some time for him to understand fully. When I started to get help for my depression, my boyfriend and I fought over it a lot - we weren't on the same page at all, and even though I tried, I couldn't get through to him with how it really felt. But listening and replying to people here on PC, and talking with my counsellor, and bringing my bf to a session there meant gradually we were able to understand each other, and our relationship healed.

I'm not sure, from your post, exactly what happened, but please don't feel too down even if it is over. You need to worry about fixing yourself more than pleasing someone else, and if this is the guy for you, he will come around and try to understand and support you. In the meantime, focus on getting what you need right now - talk to a therapist or counsellor, or even a family member or a friend. It's rough, I know.

I hope this helps a little bit, but even if it didn't, you should know that there are a lot of us here at PC that care about you.

[meander]

((((Asuyuka))))

That doesn't sound good at all, I'm so sorry that you feel so down. It's understandable why it hurts so much since this guy obviously means the world to you. If it's not too late, maybe try to express to him what he means to you?

Also, if this is the first time he's heard about your depression and the world as you see it, it might take some time for him to understand fully. When I started to get help for my depression, my boyfriend and I fought over it a lot - we weren't on the same page at all, and even though I tried, I couldn't get through to him with how it really felt. But listening and replying to people here on PC, and talking with my counsellor, and bringing my bf to a session there meant gradually we were able to understand each other, and our relationship healed.

I'm not sure, from your post, exactly what happened, but please don't feel too down even if it is over. You need to worry about fixing yourself more than pleasing someone else, and if this is the guy for you, he will come around and try to understand and support you. In the meantime, focus on getting what you need right now - talk to a therapist or counsellor, or even a family member or a friend. It's rough, I know.

I hope this helps a little bit, but even if it didn't, you should know that there are a lot of us here at PC that care about you.

[eskielover]

Is this boyfriend the one with the bipolar Mother that everyone denies is sick???? If this is that boyfriend....you are so much better off without him.....even if you don't understand that now. With everything you went through with his mother....you should have been running & I mean running at a very fast pace away from him when you found out what his mother was like.

When the right relationship is in your life.....you will be able to know it & will stop running. There is no way you can't be with a person & not with him family especially when they aren't even paying attention to how SICK their Mother really is. This is just a fact of relationships, so you are definitely better off without him.....even if you don't know it now.

It hurts when you wanted something so bad.....but when it isn't a good relationship (meaning the whole picture)......it had to end. It is sad that you weren't the one in control of breaking it us....since it puts you in the being left position......but in reality, you are better off without this person.

This is my opinion based on your previous posts about this relationship.
Debbie

[TwilightDawn]

Different boyfriend... good Christian family, his mother adores me an treats me very kindly. It is good advice, and I will keep it in mind, thank you.

[Fuzzybear]

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