It must be nice to have people care about you enough to want to help you.

I know that I'm not good enough for people. I know that people don't appreciate me because I have nothing to offer anybody right now.

I'm an emotionally shallow individual who can't connect with people no matter how hard I try. All I do is fight with people or become emotionally distant to others. When I make a friend I can't even remember to text them or talk to them because I can't ever find things to talk about because I'm so caught up dealing with my own issues and trying to survive that I don't have the energy to care about other people.

If one doesn't have the capacity to connect with people or love anybody than the only other way a person can be appreciated by others is to have something that benefits others such as a resource or knowledge.

I have nothing of value and I lack the ability to connect with people which means I am worthless to other people. Nobody would ever love and appreciate somebody like me when there are so many people who are better than I who have their life together out there.

I want to be appreciated but I am sick of fighting tooth and nail just to be a person worth caring about. It's a struggle for me to function in society at a basic level let alone to be able to be loved and accepted by people.

Why do I even try? I'm nothing.

Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend

It must be nice to have people care about you enough to want to help you.

I'm an emotionally shallow individual who can't connect with people no matter how hard I try.

It's a struggle for me to function in society at a basic level let alone to be able to be loved and accepted by people.

Why do I even try? I'm nothing.

You DO NOT seem emotionally shallow and I have seen you reach out to people and ocassionally say some very sweet things. Your replies to some of my posts were also appreciated.

I acknowledge that people who come from functional homes with resources to help their children get started (for instance, help pay for college or a car) do have it easier but they also have to "find their way" in life. Our choices (and, unfortunately, our parents/grandparents choices) effect us.

It is harder to make connections when you are struggling financially. Until a person figures out how to "make a living" they just don't have the time and resources to explore connections with others. When I was younger, I met my friends through school and work. Now that I am older and am out of school and unemployed, I am thankful that I am married and also try to maintain connections to my children, siblings, dad and inlaws. Creating a family is one of the main ways people find connections in this world. I know that coming from a dysfunctional family makes it hard for you but if you can figure out how to make a living perhaps you can eventually find a partner that will help you feel more connected. I am sorry you life is such a struggle. I am NOT saying that you are not in a tough situation.

Well why not keep trying? You've got nothing to lose… but SO much to gain for doing so. You have to realize this is not going to be an easy and quick process. It is going to take a long time. But if you want it enough why not reach for it? It's better than wallowing in your misery. Get up and fight. Have faith in whats right.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry. I feel the same way, tbh. Feeling like you have nothing to offer to others.. and as such, no reason why they should love you. Remember, though, that you've been able to make connections here. Even though it's not the "real world", you were still able to make connections with real people here. If what you said was completely true, that wouldn't have happened.

I'm sure you do have a lot of qualities, but your past experiences and current life situation make it harder for you to see them, or use them to their fullest potential. But they ARE there - please, remember that.

[eyesclosed]

I care about you and will help you. What can I do to help you?

[Sunflower123]

You are worth caring about. You do contribute here and, although I don't know you well, you are articulate and have well thought out posts. Oftentimes you offer a unique perspective on things. I understand where you're coming from. There's a feeling that you have to put so much of your time and energy into your issues and problems that you don't have anything left to give. Many days I feel like that. Everything is a struggle.

Don't give up. Keep trying. There is hope. I'm here if you need to talk. Best wishes.

I appreciate those who posted here wanting to help me.

I honestly don't know what anybody can do for me. I crave friendships and closeness with people, yet I am so overwhelmingly drained from my daily routine of survival, school, and trying to find a stable source of income that by the time everything is done, all I have the energy to do is play video games.

In fact, I am getting behind on my school work again because after last week's major essay that I did, I defaulted to playing video games all weekend rather than study. I have been so drained and depressed at home that I can't even motivate myself to take the trash out or cook a meal unless I heat up cheap microwavable crap.

I got myself burned out for the weekend because I got the top grade out of everybody in the class but I did so only because I reacted out of fear and spent several hours hanging out either in the library or with a tutor getting my essay proofread and getting help formatting it and what not. I spent all of this time obsessing over it being perfect because I'm scared of screwing up and getting a bad grade and losing my financial aid. I know that I need the resources provided by the college to have my best chance at taking care of myself. Their resources with things such as job training, student counseling, and the abundance of work study positions that are much easier to get into than a regular job not to mention all of this leftover financial aid money that I can use to pay for my living expenses if needed are all things that I feel like I need to give me a fighting chance to survive without ending up homeless.

A big reason why I feel the way I do might be fear. I don't know for sure but I do know that I spend a lot of time obsessing over ways to make money or take care of myself so I don't end up on the streets. Living alone with no support terrifies me when I have a hard enough time as it is because of my mental health.